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: kheng wee, 2 february.
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Ah! It's sports meet tomorrow at HCI. Must go there early to change into full u, since we are marshalling. And 8 squadmates will be in DALT attire. Big event for NP I think. (: Junwei is like, aiya, must be in St John's attire. To save people mah. =D Yep, I'm rather nervous. We haven't done this before, other than the run last year.

I forgot to blog about my ugly cut yesterday. I was using the computer lab during home econs. And I wanted to cross my leg. So I was sitting nicely before that, and I kua4 over. Ow. Pain. I looked at my knee. Was thinking, why am I feeling pain, no blood eh. I looked under the table, stupid. There was an iron nail. Right in the middle of nowhere. So like 3 seconds after I felt pain, and was thinking why, the blood finally comes out from this line/creak on my knee. It was quite a lot, I got no tissue, Audrie also don't have, and I tried to wipe it away with my hands. But when I wipe, more comes out. I swiped my hands over a few more times, still come out. Finally asked the teacher and went to the toilet. She wasn't very pleased. Not my fault lor. I kept on dabbing on that ugly line. It's so gross. What if I get tetanus? I reached home yesterday and my mum want me to go see doctor and get jab. =O Of course no. I don't want to get a jab. The other time the lead went in my leg, the treatment was more painful than the accident.

Let's look forward to tomorrow and I hope nothing goes wrong and we can sell all the ice lollies :D!

Overwhelming. I can't cope. I'm spending too much time on the computer and am getting the risk of being scolded by my dad. But I really need it, to discuss maths and LA sia. And Physics sometimes too.

Today there was this talk with ma'ams in the morning, and it was so quiet..didn't really expect it, but i didn't have much bah. most prob just those that were mentioned, can't remember anymore. If you know me well, you would know I will forget all the unpleasant stuff if there is really any, because I feel depressed enough, so if I keep all of this in me, I will die. Yah, we shall try our best and I'm looking forward to the rifle performance, but we need to buck up a lot.. I think the practices are somehow little, or too short.

I was LATE for class. Luckily, the teacher was later. I dashed in when the pledge almost started. Had PE today, argh. Assessment. I was horrid at it. -.- I've no talent in volleyball. Before that had movie viewing. It's either the weather or me. I've been like sweating. Maybe all the running these days. During lunch time, no one. no squadmate was around. And gang hao, Baoxian asked if I eating with anyone. Then we ate together. I remembered about the list and dashed up. Woots. Ran down. Finally saw Pei Yin when I finished eating. It's like at last. Dunno why everyone disappear.

Had geography and science. Geography was boring. I nearly dozed off =X I tried to stay awake and I did! I'm not paying enough attention, and my science teacher was absent! And we did our worksheet. Kinda good lah. Rifle practice after that, and halfway ex-ma'ams came by and we didn't expect them =O Quite surprised and well, 39 ma'ams came by and took two rifles, and later ex-ma'am said we could combine our performances, then we exchanged our performances. Like show ma'ams and ma'ams did and show us. Yah. Quite cool lah, but I've no clue how to merge. It's different music genre. Now I shall do my LA, and maths. And I'm getting my maths textbook back. Finally.

Why must this kind of thing happen? I don't like the tension that I'm seeing now, when there is already tension. Maybe we should actually just be calm. Chill - like what Zi Han always says. Very fan nao. I mean we are going to be doing so many things. Like funfair, CSM marshalling (I think), open house.

Sometimes it's good not to be able to see things, sounds wrong. 无知可能是好的.

I went to Xinyi's house to do Maths, and now I'm discussing LA sia, so I left early. Hope they can cope okay. I'm listening to all the pop songs that are nice (: And it clears my mind from all the messy and confusing world. Okay. Will be blogging soon.

I feel so tired..Mentally and physically. Class was relatively okay. There was the NP announcement during assembly for CT, but then aiya. >< Okay, okay.The fact that I didn't have a quiz is =( So my online report won't include because I was absent. EEKS! Watched movie for CME & PCCG. Eh, went down for lunch, and I don't know why squadmates keep on laughing at what I say. Pei Ting also very funny.

Had parade rehearsal, then the sun was shining in my eyes, felt rather wobbly. Luckily never fall out :D And then after that we played volleyball, the assessment coming soon. I don't understand why I did so badly for forearm. It's so unfair. Oh yep, left school and Yi Jia tried 154. We were talking on the bus, and Yan Ni was talking crappish :D LOL. Yi Jia and I were saying about our styles of writing essays and all, and we were brainstorming wow about something useful. Now I need to carry it out myself first, see if it works. But might take a lot of work.

I think I sprained or strained my ankle, Nicole's fault lor. I mean, I was being nice to chase after her for her SIA, and she (outside the gate) was like, my bus coming le! It's like I'm just at the gate le and it's such a small distance....Why she think she can't take in time for her bus? Very not worth it lor. Purposely pass to her and she give me that kind of response, and I end up with painful leg. Next time I wanna do something nice, I should reconsider. =X

Anyway, I very bored, listening to music. (Oh, I forgot to bring my medicine to school.) Most probably just take medicine and sleep. :) *Hope Jacinta gets well soon!

I didn't go to school today and saw a doctor. So it isn't a case of I-think-i-am-sick (my prev. msn nickname), but correction: I am sick. Today had science quiz, but I didn't take it. Why every time I'm absent, there is a test or quiz? The other time got dunno what music test. SO troublesome, must go find teacher and all. I lost my voice when I woke up, but I could hear myself speak at around 10am :) Woohoo.

My mum also vomitted in the morning, so both of us went to see the doctor..and he said something about her heart. o.O...I don't know what's wrong. We went to NTUC to get some groceries and I carried the bags home, she seemed very sick. I also had no idea what to do. I slept a bit, and I got some jellybeans! Anyway, when I woke up, I felt groggy and weird. Ate my medicine and I feel like I'm floating. I cannot feel my weight on solid ground.

Oh yes, you know what funny thing happened? At lunch time, Nicole called me, and I was thinking, maybe she will tell me what happened today. I answered the call, and she rattled about today's souvenir purchasing, the time, the venue, the attire etc. I was like, ya. I know. uh huh. (Anyway I was the one who got the message, then she sounded like she was the one passing me the message. And I was very confused can.) She say something like, so yeah, remember today need to go buy materials with ma'ams. I said, er..but why are you telling me this? I'm sick, I'm not in school. *silence for two seconds* Oh yeah hor, I forgot.

It's a very horrid feeling even though nothing is wrong lah. It's like I feel so non-existent. Aiyah, anyway people treat me as non-existent for the longest time I know. At least I am existent to myself.

Jiajia called me just now and the call was loong. Haha. She told me about homework and stuff. And then we were talking about Sports Meet, and weird topics. Anyway, I think tomorrow there will be tough trainins for rifles, and I will be late. The problem is, it starts at 3.45pm and my maths remedial ends at 3.45pm, so what happens? Am I supposed to fall in and all? Very scary. But 船到桥头自然直, I guess I shouldn't worry too much. Oh, later my medicine cause serious drowsiness, then maybe I spin the rifle and plomp right onto the ground. I think I'm going to sleep soon. ><

I feel horrid. I think I'm sick again. How many times must I fall sick in a month? I lost my voice, and serious runny nose. Excessive talking = loss of voice. I shall not talk anymore.

Today was our first time practising drills with 42. Yep in the morning. Back to lessons, so many things not completed. I hate the feeling of hanging homework uncompleted, which means SIA. Usually in primary school, you get one project and you get another when you finish it. Now it's like everything comes at once, you cannot focus properly at all. I think I'm going to drop dead.

I want to sleep, but I can't because there is so many things to do. And I can't seem to reach any squadmate who can make it tomorrow. I'm not sure if I'm going myself because I'm feeling freezy cold. I always have this feeling before fever. I hope the fever doesn't come. Maybe my internal strength isn't good enough, after today's hentaking, I most probably caught a cold or some bug. Aiya, don't feel like typing any more. I just hope today can become better. Something nice might happen.

I wasn't really hoping the debate in gmail to be that strong. I merely hoped that squadmates can come to squad table from time to time! Don't misinterpret hor. (Maybe Doctor Carrie will become our LA teacher for sure - she taught us our first lesson with her today..Pretty fun!)

I saw Jing-Yi ma'am today :D So cool! I was on 157, then I was heading towards Jurong Point, and suddenly I saw a familiar face at one random bus stop :D! Ma'am was staring, then she waved :) :)! And I waved back. Wow, it's a pleasant surprise!

Anyway today I was out for the whole morning at my friend's house to do Physics SIA, had to do a yo-yo model, and I think our time was spent not very wisely lah. We only did a part of the report and the black wet yo-yo. I had superglue stuck on my hand. Yuck. I later went to buy food at Jurong Point :D Haha, and I went home myself. Oh yep, everyone was out, and horrid lah. Because got family gathering but I didn't get to go because of the project work. Woots. =X Well, I don't exactly like watching TV myself, only sometimes :)

I'm talking to Jiajia on MSN about all the fun and happy times last year in NP (:

For the past ACTs, we have been practising for the parade - NPDP, in groups A and B. And Group A comes in from the canteen side and leaves by the canteen side. =( I wanted to be at the trophy cabinet and end at the canteen. Then can march more (: I LIKE THIS WEEK A LOT. This week is so much stress-reduced. Watched a lot of movies, videos etc, well quite a few assignments to hand in. I want this kind more.

Today morning we had assembly in class, everyone went out to see the rainbow outside. =O Eh, lots of funfair stuff, I hope ours can get approved bah. Okay, it was a pretty weird day today. >< style="font-style: italic;">movement outside the classroom >< *fear* Apparently, lilaoshi didn't seem very happy. I don't know why. Geography was quite okay. LA was more of sharing of the movie Hero, and something interesting happened xD Jeslyn kept laughing to herself, then affect me and I start giggling too. So evil! It went on like THAT, until....*mm, nods head* 天啊 I am siao le. Hey, but Science wasn't easy. It's like bunny hop, one topic to another. I couldn't catch everything. 笨蛋. (Me lah)

Had History, CME, and eh.ah! Drama. History was okay, had to do mindmap. CME was ..yuck. I brought the thick thick NY book because she said we are supposed to bring, then she go use the textbook. And I must go and copy out a wenzhang for her. 14 people, 14 different wenzhangs eh. GOT topic somemore. She never specify bring what lor. Irritating. Obviously you can't show it right. And Drama was cool because we got to watch last year's Choral & Drama night performances =D But we are supposed to write down important points lah.

/*Homework list */
Math - QG1
Math - LG 1.1
Math - remedial worksheet
History - notes/mindmaps
Science - worksheet
Art - the sculpture worksheet.
Malay - study for quiz ( =l )
CME - copy wenzhang -.-
Others - type out CIP reflection. [Monitress so evil, throw me the job to do =O =O! no lah no lah. :)]

Still must do a lot of the regular stuff. Horrid. ACT today was challenging, because we had four people in Grp A at first only :O Actually after drama we dashed out and were looking down the quad. I think we were seen. Oh yah. I nearly lost my voice. I thought I sounded like a croaking frog. or chicken. Lynn was very tired because she gave timing before we came. At least armswing coordination was better than I expected :) We did the basic commands we learnt before, and sometimes when 42 was not with us, we got to do those newer drills (: I counted, and we only did one hormat! So sad right? I had been hoping to do hormat kekanan and kekiri. It's one in the whole ACT. Rare wor.

The scary thing was blind drills. Oh my gosh. I was very scared, after 上次. I remember Hui Han was on my right, and when we kekenan lurus, I could feel her shoulder. Then after a short while, she vanished le. =X Ma'ams gave us commands and I could hear that we all doing different things, but I ended up on the correct side! And I got turn 90 degrees. At least I wasn't facing the toilet or something. I think I knocked into many people. SO diu lian. After that squadmates changed and went to watch Scarlet, but I went home. Zi Han changed her mind and went to support her friend. Pei Yin, Zi Han and I spent a long time in the canteen. And so isolated. Quiet quiet and somehow gloomy.

Hope that we can have recre soon or something! Then can recollect all those nice memories we have had from the past (: Or squadtalk woohoo. I hope that one day all of us will come down to quad and we can have full squad. It will be soo awesome! And DALT DINNER is coming soon. And also the sale. So many things. This post is getting draggy. =X

So many things to do! Got geog worksheet, science worksheet, cl annotation for textbook, market research, SIAs (the most pressurising). I'm going to die. History was interesting, then I enjoyed music, because I just need to shake the rainstick and hit drumsticks in 1-2-3-4 continuously. But very hard to focus, me distracted a lot. And LA was movie watching (:, there was NO maths woohoo! And there was Chinese. Chinese is better than Maths. I was very ..um because Nicole borrowed my dictionary and I nearly had to copy 10 pages of dictionary (small print) because I never "bring" it. My teacher stare at me very long, like she not convinced.

Well, she was in class for 2 and half hours the whole time, and after that there was this Chinese talk thing. When it ended, all of us started chionging to change. So I think we started very late, compared to usual times, and we marched, and also got to the part where we rehearsed the parade. And halfway, I go and smash my own hand when carrying the bench ==" All squadmates were on the other side trying to "throw" it over, and my whole side of the bench was thrown over. I was like one person only, against the force of so many people. I only feel numbness now. At least there wasn't anything that went very wrong. Be thankful for that.

I received this FOL thingy from the library and I realised I neglected the CIP for quite some time =O Maybe one day I will try to volunteer for some of the duties and get CIP hours. Homework! =(

*edit: hey my dad's basketball friend was on tv, the 抢摊 show. He was the chef teaching dunno who. Just thought it was kinda cool (:*

This is basically nothing :O Trying to have a short post, well, I kinda liked today. Had volleyball, but all the netball people on my side were contacting the ball. Then I was like very extra. -.- And my serve is sucky. Before that, Miss Chia didn't come, and half the lesson no one was in class. So Mr Lim thumped in and started to teach with his graphical mindmap. Physical force = one fist o.O Lunch was longg, which is good. I brought xiao hai to class, and Jacinta so sad. =( Crappish. Um, there was souvenirs meeting and we finally picked what we wanted to do. [There were Zi Han, Yan Ni and Puay Ling present, cool (: ] Now must do proposal. Ah. Market research =O Last time I did was in P5 I think. Everyone will be late tomorrow, I wonder what will happen. What if I can't change in time? Teachers always dismiss late. Gah.

My eyes nearly popped out today, I stayed awake for so long yesterday to rush my work, and was forcing myself to stay awake. I feel pain in my eyes. Ow ow. I must sleep early today.

I went to Mian Jun's house to do Geography and History, and I thought I would be late =O I reached MRT at 9.04am apparently. Haha, and Mian Jun came afterwards. She called Si Lei and she was still at Ang Mo Kio. I was surprised xD I thought I was the latest. So we just went back to her house and I saw everyone present. I had 心理准备 that I would see ma'am le. Haha. :) They were all very warm and I just settled down in the computer room, I also was shocked lol. After that, we did research on volcanic eruptions because I thought it was very cool. And aiya, the one about the prisoner very interesting. Mian Jun was okay with it :) I like volcanoes. I mean, I like reading about them. Then we got started, oh, still got some more to do lah. Mian Rong ma'am came in once in a while to chat with us, and then she left the house and headed for the library.

Then after about one hour, Si Lei was coming up, then Mian Jun went to open the door. Then we realised ma'am was staring at Si Lei when they met for 20 seconds before she recalled who she was :P Hahas. We kept doing, but our progress was slow lol. (I feel tired already, still haven't finished geog wksht and maths written task) I like the information we got actually, because at first I was very disappointed, when I couldn't find the same information I had read at home before. You know hor, I read about Mount Pelee even before we were given this SIA? I'm so pro. But we got them eventually. (:

We thought Wanton was coming to do history SIA afterwards, and Si Lei almost wanted to go le. But then, Wanton smsed Mian Jun saying that she got ear infection and couldn't come =X, so we were like huh. Then she switched jobs with me, but I don't think it's easier at all. I hate doing bibliography. I took like 20 minutes the other time to do one page of it. But I like doing cover pages and the others. We ate lunch, and it was yummy. Si Lei also stayed back and we continued doing our geog. At least we got to the action plan, we have the brief details. My brain nearly stopped working halfway. Mian Jun's relatives came by, and they played a bit outside. The three of us were like talking about random stuff and we went to search wiki for our primary school :D My school is old.

Then Mian Rong ma'am came back and she brought in Mr Lonely, so cute! But ma'am and Mian Jun kept saying it was fat. No lol, actually Si Hui's hamster is fatter. Si Lei wasn't a big fan of hamsters, so she didn't play. I grabbed it and then I put in on my hands, but hor, it was running all around can. =O I was like, "Eh! This hamster so hyperr one! It's biting my finger." Was hoping that it wouldn't fall. It's like so full of energy! I was pretty used to the biting because every time I went to Si Hui's house I would get bitten by Hammy. But then Mr Lonely was so fast. So cute :D

Anyway, we finished at around 4 and I headed back home. Woots, I felt so tired. But today was a better day compared to yesterday.

APRIL 12 2008 - Saturday
It was hair-tearing yesterday and Friday because Jacinta and I was afraid we would forget what to bring, then both of us were on MSN chatting, and we even made up a timeplan for yesterday. We are so organised. Well, Puay Ling was not able to use the computer and we sent it to her yesterday, the day itself. I was so scared. But anyway, we were excited we could pin on our 3rd class and safety first badges (: And also our rank!

I took 174 and it was like what. 2 hours to reach school? What was that. So ridiculous can. The most ridiculous thing haven't happened yet. Jacinta was supposed to meet me in school and I made her wait for like 45 plus mins. Sorry Jacinta =( I left my house on time, and had 1 hour allowance, but I was still late. We sort of made our u look better in the toilet, and tried to align everything. It was around 11 plus at that time. After everything was done, Puay Ling called us and said she didnt have her ___ =O So we went coro to buy lunch, bubble tea, snacks, and drinks for our lunch, as well as dinner.

It was quite interesting, my first time going out with another squadmate only, if i'm not wrong. Oh I remember I went out with Pei Ting once before. Haha. Yep, then I spent so much money in one day, especially the bubble tea. We rushed back to school and we saw Puay Ling (: She was in mufti le. Then we chionged, gobbled down our lunch, packed our bags, and changed. It was like rush hour. Never felt this way before. When we were done, we quickly cleared everything and we saw Yi Jia (: *waved*

So, we took 170, and Puay Ling met her friend on there, who was kind enough to tell us where we should drop off at. We've never been to ACS Barker. At least we weren't late, and managed to get back on schedule. We went to this toilet, and was surprised that there was no one, and it was very clean. Then we were afraid people might see us, so we all put on beret and stuff in one cubicle after we changed. I was sweating and sweating. Finally we were done, but only 20 minutes left to find ma'ams. We got out and started looking everywhere. We only saw Boys' Brigades and it was so much panicking. I called Yung Hian ma'am, and she kindly said she would help us to locate where we should go to. We felt relieved for a bit, and suddenly my bag started vibrating -.- Imagine all the things we were carrying. Shoebag, uniform cover, bags, dinner. I was digging and digging. Zhi Yi ma'am got back to us and said we were to go to the carpark. And great, we ran and ran then we found ma'ams. =O *pant pant pant*

Um, there was Hui Shan ma'am, Zhi Yi ma'am, Puay Ling, Jacinta and me for yesterday. Jacinta kept telling me got a lot of seats, so I thought a lot of people from area 15 will be around, but somehow it didn't seem that much. It was horridly horrid. On the bus, I was talking to squadmates, and everything was going ok. We reached HTA, and there was a small hiccup because we were lagging behind. We passed the stickers to ma'ams, but we didn't have enough, so we were trying to get the attention of the sir, and he was like, "Oh, you all not enough ah? Don't worry, I have a lot in my bag!" :) Then he pulled one out and we got over that one. But ma'ams were far away, and because we had to stand in a single file, we couldn't do much.

After that we stood in 3 rows, and we were behind, and ma'ams were in front. I felt so 失败 because our stuff kept dropping, and ma'am had to help us. =( And things kept getting worse. We were supposed to get seated and we were just shifting inwards, when the first row had one empty seat. They were calling one of us to shift over, and Jacinta just took her bags over and we got separated. Sorry we hurt your feelings Jacinta =( She was hurt, I felt terrible inside also. Other schools settled in, and there was no way out. We tried, and nope. =X 心里面觉得很沉重. 我情愿坐在那里的是我. (Midway, we passed Jacinta's food to her, but I don't think she could consume, and we also passed a note to her. 对不起!)

We all love you :) I spotted Alicia, then Jia Yuin ma'am, and wow, ma'am and Alicia looked so zai!! I was inspired and impressed. 对NYNP 的骄傲感. After that, Glenda and Katherine ma'am marched towards our side in the middle of the parade. Flag flying up high. Oh yes, we did sing the National Anthem, with everyone saluting at the same time. It was low-tone. There was a fancy drill where they wore their uniform with coloured bands and they had rifles. The cool part was they belok-ed and it looked very awesome. They also spinned their rifles. I want to learn fancy drill also. We watched the contingents which came back in with the fancy drill squad, run all the way out.

Oh yep, someone asked us a very hard-to-answer question. It was a simple yes or no answer. But it was so hard. =( In between the whole thing, Puay Ling and I were discussing about something very important too. I was jotting down the stuff. At the end, we quickly passed ma'ams some food, and we were soon allowed to go. Ma'ams asked us if we were waiting for our squadmates, at first we wanted to pass our drinks to ma'ams and squadmates, but it seemed like they won't be ending soon, so we decided not to wait. Before we left, we had to change into mufti, but ma'ams went ahead of us, and they marched off. We felt soooo lost. What were we supposed to do now? Maybe we should wait for squadmates. We made up our mind to change out of full u first. Got into a toilet, similarly it was not very crowded. And I changed in same cubicle as Jacinta. =X She's bian tai. Fine. That's not the point. We still had 焦虑的心情. Packed our bags and shoe bags, left the toilet.

Now, what do we do? I felt like a primary one kid who just started school. No one told us what to do. No one guided us. Maybe it's part of growing up. Being independent? Puay Ling called ma'am, and we were told to march out of HTA. Ok. So since we were given the orders, we just did it. We began marching, it was not smooth, our bags were clashing, and I felt that the stuff I was carrying was so heavy. Heavier than my schoolbag, something that everyone says is so heavy. March, march, march. I thought we could end this frightening night once and for all. It's just soon after, someone YELLED, "Berhenti!". I was so at loss. I was actually supposed to give commands, and we did all the belok and cepat jalan before. Puay Ling was giving timing. I didn't know if we were supposed to do the command. I was frightened badly. Guess what happened? It's too horrid to be said. I can never get the scene off my head. I even had a nightmare when I got home. Is this supposed to be happening to us? I wanted to break down.

But no, we were representing NYNP, we called ma'ams, and they said to continue marching. Jacinta was feeling very uncomfortable too. We felt so upset. We did nothing wrong. It's so hard, so tough. Higher rank vs our ma'ams. It's such a horrid dilemma. Fine. I plucked up my courage, commanded the three of us again. Off we march. Kept going, kept going. Even though you are battling with yourself. Finally, "sekuad berhenti!", I gave the last command. It was over. It was a nightmare. A nightmare I would never forget.

We walked to the bus stop, all feeling uneasy and frightened. But the bus stop was simply filled with people. There were also people cutting in front of us. There was no way we could go home at this rate, it is like a stretch of packed people on the lane. Again, three of us, braving ourselves up, decided to take the risk and walk one bus stop back. We did not even know how far away it was. It was really terrifying. It was a dark lane, with a few lights brighting up, there were so much trees around. I could not see anything. It was okay at first, slowly, slowly, as we moved further and further away from the bus stop, fear came towards us. We felt so abandoned, ____ would never let this happen to us. I could feel the danger also. There was no one around. We held hands and kept on walking, there it is. We saw our destination. But there was this stone-like thing, like a tomb. I kept it to myself.

我要你陪着我，看着那海 龟水中游。。。We began singing, trying to forget about all the unpleasant things. Looking at the bright stars, we also sang wo ke yi. We covered our fears, pretended to stay happy. The bus came, and we flagged for it desperately. On the bus, we felt so much safer, so much better. However, Jacinta's bag started leaking, and there was a puddle of water which was in it, we quickly got off the bus, and went to one corner to empty her bag and dry it. 小孩looked like it peed all over itself, and there were traces of it all over its mouth (: Puay Ling said she got a lot of hands, and was taking everything lol. We were laughing so much. Jacinta was not so happy lah. xD We began having our pathetic dinner, it was so insufficient. =( But we had to go home. I got onto the train to Jurong East with Jacinta, and Puay Ling took the other way. I talked to Jacinta on the train, kind of like heart-to-heart type. And we felt so much. It was pretty silent, and solemn. I really hope it is an misunderstanding, but it doesn't seem to be. What should we do?

When we left Puay Ling, I called my dad, and my sis was coming home from a party, and because of that, I was lucky enough to hitch a ride home with all my things dangling. If someone were to crash into me on the train, I would probably have problems bending down to pick things up, because if I pick one up, I will drop another. I got home and I fell asleep very quickly. It was a very tiring day. I don't know. =( It didn't seem right.

So many things happened today. My gosh. At the start was PE lesson, changed in locker room o.O and ran eight rounds around the hall. That's a big number. Kinda horrid at volleyball. Later was maths, and we did graphs, haha so fun. At least I was alert. For LA, the small actress playing Scout in the TKAM was so cute (: I liked the movie a lot, but I think we will be reviewing the movie =( Lunchtime was a bit weird weird, because I was rushing my food down, and then we went to find out about NPAP stuff, but. nothing much was revealed.

(This weekend I'm soo busy. Sat: Music Project, The parade, trying to slot in ivp meet up too. // Sun: Geog, History SIAs) Like the whole weekend from morning to night also have things.

Well, then there was home econs and Malay :D You know what? We learnt this gay little song that refers to the chopping of ducks and geese, but then there's this grandma dancing in between. The actions and words are like..don't match. I mean, I was reasoning with my tablemate, why would chopping be linked to a dance? You mean you chop the animals and you start dancing? o.O I always dislike doing stuff that I don't understand. =X

Yep, then there was maths remedial. Happily I finished my remedial worksheet in time (: I left the classroom 2/7, and walked out, wanted to call Yi Jia since she was free, no meeting up for open house. And she was right there =D Haha, I can save phone bills with my extraordinary powers. What crap. I'm going crazy. Right, then we spent time with Glenda and Pei Yin going around the school, went Popular buy food and stationery, then sat down to talk about stuff. We were um, bored so we wanted to borrow a ball. It totally seemed so odd. I have no idea why. It's like putting ice cream into tomato sauce. I was feeling that. Spending soo long to get a ball. We went SAC and. argh. All the balls are like bo air. Dumb. The horridest thing I've ever done is stepping into, no, standing outside SAC today. I have no idea what I was doing. Creepy and :O Something is wrong with me.

I want to knock my head against the wall le. :( And there's so much due tomorrow, gotta prep u. :O :O I hope everything goes well tomorrow *crosses fingers* And I wish many miracles can happen, like I can have my dreams and wishes come true, and maybe I can be smarter. On the bright side, it's a Friday tomorrow. Annd the dayy after is a Saturday. Okay, a lot of projects, but I'm looking forward to NPAP. The only special parade I took part in was the school National Day parade last year. I've a feeling that this one will be really cool =D

*Something that happened today morning: I saw Lynn at the bus stop today, have never seen her there before (: Rare occurrence

I was worried about LG3 today, but well handed in le, shall just forget about it. Can you believe that you can have 1 hour doing anything you want, in an air-con room? Got computers some more, but I never use lah. During Art, the teacher had meeting then all of us were just sitting in there doing random stuff. I was sleepy. Almost fell asleep, then I went to watch Hui Ker they all play the flying game, and the marble one.

After that it was going home time, Pei Yin called me when I was helping some OM classmates do their moon, haha, I'm a tape cutter. xD Then soon I went down, and I was walking awkwardly, struggling to put on my bag properly. (Today hor I saw a lot of stuff. Nevermind.) So I ate a bit in the canteen and went off with Pei Yin after a while. Boarded 174, and I was very very irritated by these two guys who looked like they were so much older than us, and they were acting like kids. What's with the tapping thing? And they even go and take lighter and play on the bus! It was damn frustrating. I almost felt like shouting at them can. It's just that I was younger and didn't want to make it awkward for all.

Right, then I got off at interchange, and I was the first in the line (: Haha, means that bus left when I arrived or something lor. Or it's not a busy time of the day. Yeah, uh..Okay, so the bus came and I got up, and I was happy that I got to choose the seats first, the feeling you get when you go home early, not very early but yep, and I was facing the interchange and settling down, when I felt THE presence of .... [O: eep.] Anyway, I reached home and sleep sleep sleep. But my mum go and wake me up. =( I want sleep some more. I should be doing my homework now, what am I doing. I forgot to add for last post that I enjoyed Tetrafide's performance a lot, and sometimes their composed pieces will start floating around in my head. There's math ... remedial tomorrow. I'm so horrid at it. I feel like an owl. Most probably need to stay up to do assignments/written tasks. I don't think can finish them all though. Hope to start on them.

And yesterday was ACT (: Our drills seemed to improve! Also, 40 ma'ams were given corporal ranks and we BECAME Lance Corporals! =D Imagine. later during ATC, we can report for camp as a lance corporal. So cool.

TEAM ONE GOT FIRST RUNNER UP!
NYCT TEAM 1: Yuan Han ma'am, Huishan Ma'am, Jie Qi ma'am, Amelia ma'am, Chuxi ma'am, Ping Ting ma'am, Wen Xian, Pei Ting and Esther :D
NYCT TEAM 2: Yin Hwee ma'am, Jin Qing ma'am, Jomain ma'am, Zhi Yi ma'am, Ying Yun ma'am, Mei Chun ma'am, Hui Cong ma'am, Puay Ling, Jacinta, Clarissa and me!

I feel rather happy (: But I didn't get to watch the live pitch, it's a big disappointment for me. I heard that a lot of competition, quite tight, but we made it (: Even though it may not be first, but it is still really awesome. I was like sick =X It's so irritating! Forget about it =D I was thrilled to hear that news on Saturday anyway! GO NYCT!

Today I went to Wan Ting's house to do Physics SIA and I took 174, the opposite way, very 难得 actually, but I kinda got lost, I was not sure if it was correct stop that I dropped off. When I confirmed, I didn't know how to walk lol. So I called her and she haven't reached home from piano, and I waited at the bus stop. There was this person smoking, and my nose was very sensitive to it. Kept running. And she arrived and I followed her, and Baoxian was there already xD I was quite surprised. We finished just after lunch time, and Baoxian and I got a lift to West Mall, and Baoxian headed to her grandma's house and I decided to buy something from Breadtalk, bought four dollars worth of bread, quite a lot actually. Then took bus back to interchange and bought some food from Jurong Point too before heading home. Because no lunch at home. I ate like almost everything when I reached home. I have an exceptionally big appetite. Hm, I think that's about it.

And tomorrow we are going to clear the CT stuff =(

(: Nowadays, I file lots of stuff under the category NYNP. So I felt that today went rather..smoothly? According to timetable, it's geography and we learnt about rocks. Don't know why, but I have this interest in rocks (: During LA, we shared poems for the whole lesson, so was quite relaxed. I dislike each LA lesson, it's like if you tell me, the next lesson is LA, I will go, oh no, I don't want to go. I don't remembering looking forward to it many times. And we got back History block test. =( I did badly..*frowns*

Before Drama started, Jacinta was talking to me, she was walking with Alicia, when Jiajia and I walked to the Music Room. I admit I said the wrong thing lol. After that we changed into PT kit, we waited for other squadmates who were late from class. I felt so warm today, oppressed feeling. We actually were lost, since we didn't see squadmates at pitch, then we went towards NP room. Carried equipment, and ma'ams said that the pegs were hardest to hold, because will drop. Not good. We didn't exactly pitch, we learnt pegging (aligning), door flap (tying), bowline-ing (with ring) and unpitching, folding the sheets.

I like pegging, although I'm not very good at it. I got the feeling that I wanted to peg - when I touched the peg, the ground and the mud =P! I thought Jacinta was very ..agitated, like the way she peg, look like she want to kill someone. =D Aiya, I peg slow slow. Then after that for door flap, I was horrible at it lor. It's like you start folding and rolling it, then you need to stretch your hands to the entire thing to get that tension needed. With two hands, you need to tie reef knot along with the no-crease door flaps. At first was Nicole and Puay Ling do, and they did better than me haha. Then I did with Jacinta, and it was Jiajia, Yan Ni and Hui Han!

Bowline-ing. Fun fun! But I need to improve a lot, speed especially. Then we got to pull guylines (: Shout across to the other side and like coordinate between two squadmates. Hui Han had some problems, and there was time limit, so I was trying to teach her how to tie, was rushing rushing and panicking. Maybe, squadmates are in fact better than me, at first when I learnt guyline for basha, I tied the guyline wrongly. Slipknot never pull the below twine. Hui Han also had that problem. xD

*edit* Our second campcraft lesson!

While we were doing tent, Team 1 squadmates were pitching their 16 minute pitch on the other side. (: Finals are tomorrow for them! Three cheers and three cheers and three cheers to NYNP :) Hope that squadmates will enjoy the pitch for their FINALS, 没有遗憾!

I haven't been blogging a lot for these days, because I was sick! Missed so much lessons, missed our lovely 41 squad birthday, and a lot more.

Two days is actually very precious, I realise. And I think there is a maths quiz, I'm afraid of maths, after all the trouble and frustrations it gave me. I haven't learnt how to solve linear equations with graph. All classmates seemed to be chionging LA and CL worksheets, but I don't have mine. I feel quite nervous also, because I sneaked on again to use the computer. I heard from squadmates that 38 ma'ams came back, and they sang birthday song. Missed out on a lot, especially ivp, I sort of let down my group members because I didn't go to school.

On Monday, I woke up at 4.30am to go to school early and talk to CT squadmates because we were feeling down that time, and because I saw the doctor on Sunday, my dad shouted at me, said that I shouldn't go and everything. And say what, I want to go 找死. I merely wanted to go to school and also, I was quite proud for finishing my work even before I saw the doctor on Sunday. Then he screamed at me the whole morning. I couldn't take it. I had no choice but to go back on the bed and covered myself with a pillow. Today, I woke up, but then in the end, they go and secretly prepare everything, my sister already left the house, so I was once again at home.

When you are at home alone, you really tend to think a lot. And even though I got so much sleep, my mind couldn't rest at all. I was worried about school work, ivp lessons, squadmates, 3rd class, CT, NP, so much, so much. I don't think I'm seriously sick, but my phlegm from nose entered the throat, so the throat got lots of that. Is it that serious? Two days MC. Well, it's back to school tomorrow, and I hope I won't get drowsy in class. I'm afraid of getting back my block tests actually. I am rarely afraid of anything (concrete), like ghosts, darkness, cockroaches, because I'm more afraid of myself. I tell myself this and that, and it chokes up everything.

Eew, I think I sound so old. Don't think so much le, I look forward to school and seeing squadmates, but not the quizzes and everything yet (because I know I will fail), I want a day or two to clarify things with my classmates and teachers. -.- THE HAPPY THING TODAY IS, ITS APRIL DA FIRST!

HAPPY SQUAD BIRTHDAY! HAPPY 41 DAY! FORTYONE (:

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Ah! It's sports meet tomorrow at HCI. Must go there early to change into full u, since we are marshalling. And 8 squadmates will be in DALT attire. Big event for NP I think. (: Junwei is like, aiya, must be in St John's attire. To save people mah. =D Yep, I'm rather nervous. We haven't done this before, other than the run last year.

I forgot to blog about my ugly cut yesterday. I was using the computer lab during home econs. And I wanted to cross my leg. So I was sitting nicely before that, and I kua4 over. Ow. Pain. I looked at my knee. Was thinking, why am I feeling pain, no blood eh. I looked under the table, stupid. There was an iron nail. Right in the middle of nowhere. So like 3 seconds after I felt pain, and was thinking why, the blood finally comes out from this line/creak on my knee. It was quite a lot, I got no tissue, Audrie also don't have, and I tried to wipe it away with my hands. But when I wipe, more comes out. I swiped my hands over a few more times, still come out. Finally asked the teacher and went to the toilet. She wasn't very pleased. Not my fault lor. I kept on dabbing on that ugly line. It's so gross. What if I get tetanus? I reached home yesterday and my mum want me to go see doctor and get jab. =O Of course no. I don't want to get a jab. The other time the lead went in my leg, the treatment was more painful than the accident.

Let's look forward to tomorrow and I hope nothing goes wrong and we can sell all the ice lollies :D!

Overwhelming. I can't cope. I'm spending too much time on the computer and am getting the risk of being scolded by my dad. But I really need it, to discuss maths and LA sia. And Physics sometimes too.

Today there was this talk with ma'ams in the morning, and it was so quiet..didn't really expect it, but i didn't have much bah. most prob just those that were mentioned, can't remember anymore. If you know me well, you would know I will forget all the unpleasant stuff if there is really any, because I feel depressed enough, so if I keep all of this in me, I will die. Yah, we shall try our best and I'm looking forward to the rifle performance, but we need to buck up a lot.. I think the practices are somehow little, or too short.

I was LATE for class. Luckily, the teacher was later. I dashed in when the pledge almost started. Had PE today, argh. Assessment. I was horrid at it. -.- I've no talent in volleyball. Before that had movie viewing. It's either the weather or me. I've been like sweating. Maybe all the running these days. During lunch time, no one. no squadmate was around. And gang hao, Baoxian asked if I eating with anyone. Then we ate together. I remembered about the list and dashed up. Woots. Ran down. Finally saw Pei Yin when I finished eating. It's like at last. Dunno why everyone disappear.

Had geography and science. Geography was boring. I nearly dozed off =X I tried to stay awake and I did! I'm not paying enough attention, and my science teacher was absent! And we did our worksheet. Kinda good lah. Rifle practice after that, and halfway ex-ma'ams came by and we didn't expect them =O Quite surprised and well, 39 ma'ams came by and took two rifles, and later ex-ma'am said we could combine our performances, then we exchanged our performances. Like show ma'ams and ma'ams did and show us. Yah. Quite cool lah, but I've no clue how to merge. It's different music genre. Now I shall do my LA, and maths. And I'm getting my maths textbook back. Finally.

Why must this kind of thing happen? I don't like the tension that I'm seeing now, when there is already tension. Maybe we should actually just be calm. Chill - like what Zi Han always says. Very fan nao. I mean we are going to be doing so many things. Like funfair, CSM marshalling (I think), open house.

Sometimes it's good not to be able to see things, sounds wrong. 无知可能是好的.

I went to Xinyi's house to do Maths, and now I'm discussing LA sia, so I left early. Hope they can cope okay. I'm listening to all the pop songs that are nice (: And it clears my mind from all the messy and confusing world. Okay. Will be blogging soon.

I feel so tired..Mentally and physically. Class was relatively okay. There was the NP announcement during assembly for CT, but then aiya. >< Okay, okay.The fact that I didn't have a quiz is =( So my online report won't include because I was absent. EEKS! Watched movie for CME & PCCG. Eh, went down for lunch, and I don't know why squadmates keep on laughing at what I say. Pei Ting also very funny.

Had parade rehearsal, then the sun was shining in my eyes, felt rather wobbly. Luckily never fall out :D And then after that we played volleyball, the assessment coming soon. I don't understand why I did so badly for forearm. It's so unfair. Oh yep, left school and Yi Jia tried 154. We were talking on the bus, and Yan Ni was talking crappish :D LOL. Yi Jia and I were saying about our styles of writing essays and all, and we were brainstorming wow about something useful. Now I need to carry it out myself first, see if it works. But might take a lot of work.

I think I sprained or strained my ankle, Nicole's fault lor. I mean, I was being nice to chase after her for her SIA, and she (outside the gate) was like, my bus coming le! It's like I'm just at the gate le and it's such a small distance....Why she think she can't take in time for her bus? Very not worth it lor. Purposely pass to her and she give me that kind of response, and I end up with painful leg. Next time I wanna do something nice, I should reconsider. =X

Anyway, I very bored, listening to music. (Oh, I forgot to bring my medicine to school.) Most probably just take medicine and sleep. :) *Hope Jacinta gets well soon!

I didn't go to school today and saw a doctor. So it isn't a case of I-think-i-am-sick (my prev. msn nickname), but correction: I am sick. Today had science quiz, but I didn't take it. Why every time I'm absent, there is a test or quiz? The other time got dunno what music test. SO troublesome, must go find teacher and all. I lost my voice when I woke up, but I could hear myself speak at around 10am :) Woohoo.

My mum also vomitted in the morning, so both of us went to see the doctor..and he said something about her heart. o.O...I don't know what's wrong. We went to NTUC to get some groceries and I carried the bags home, she seemed very sick. I also had no idea what to do. I slept a bit, and I got some jellybeans! Anyway, when I woke up, I felt groggy and weird. Ate my medicine and I feel like I'm floating. I cannot feel my weight on solid ground.

Oh yes, you know what funny thing happened? At lunch time, Nicole called me, and I was thinking, maybe she will tell me what happened today. I answered the call, and she rattled about today's souvenir purchasing, the time, the venue, the attire etc. I was like, ya. I know. uh huh. (Anyway I was the one who got the message, then she sounded like she was the one passing me the message. And I was very confused can.) She say something like, so yeah, remember today need to go buy materials with ma'ams. I said, er..but why are you telling me this? I'm sick, I'm not in school. *silence for two seconds* Oh yeah hor, I forgot.

It's a very horrid feeling even though nothing is wrong lah. It's like I feel so non-existent. Aiyah, anyway people treat me as non-existent for the longest time I know. At least I am existent to myself.

Jiajia called me just now and the call was loong. Haha. She told me about homework and stuff. And then we were talking about Sports Meet, and weird topics. Anyway, I think tomorrow there will be tough trainins for rifles, and I will be late. The problem is, it starts at 3.45pm and my maths remedial ends at 3.45pm, so what happens? Am I supposed to fall in and all? Very scary. But 船到桥头自然直, I guess I shouldn't worry too much. Oh, later my medicine cause serious drowsiness, then maybe I spin the rifle and plomp right onto the ground. I think I'm going to sleep soon. ><

I feel horrid. I think I'm sick again. How many times must I fall sick in a month? I lost my voice, and serious runny nose. Excessive talking = loss of voice. I shall not talk anymore.

Today was our first time practising drills with 42. Yep in the morning. Back to lessons, so many things not completed. I hate the feeling of hanging homework uncompleted, which means SIA. Usually in primary school, you get one project and you get another when you finish it. Now it's like everything comes at once, you cannot focus properly at all. I think I'm going to drop dead.

I want to sleep, but I can't because there is so many things to do. And I can't seem to reach any squadmate who can make it tomorrow. I'm not sure if I'm going myself because I'm feeling freezy cold. I always have this feeling before fever. I hope the fever doesn't come. Maybe my internal strength isn't good enough, after today's hentaking, I most probably caught a cold or some bug. Aiya, don't feel like typing any more. I just hope today can become better. Something nice might happen.

I wasn't really hoping the debate in gmail to be that strong. I merely hoped that squadmates can come to squad table from time to time! Don't misinterpret hor. (Maybe Doctor Carrie will become our LA teacher for sure - she taught us our first lesson with her today..Pretty fun!)

I saw Jing-Yi ma'am today :D So cool! I was on 157, then I was heading towards Jurong Point, and suddenly I saw a familiar face at one random bus stop :D! Ma'am was staring, then she waved :) :)! And I waved back. Wow, it's a pleasant surprise!

Anyway today I was out for the whole morning at my friend's house to do Physics SIA, had to do a yo-yo model, and I think our time was spent not very wisely lah. We only did a part of the report and the black wet yo-yo. I had superglue stuck on my hand. Yuck. I later went to buy food at Jurong Point :D Haha, and I went home myself. Oh yep, everyone was out, and horrid lah. Because got family gathering but I didn't get to go because of the project work. Woots. =X Well, I don't exactly like watching TV myself, only sometimes :)

I'm talking to Jiajia on MSN about all the fun and happy times last year in NP (:

For the past ACTs, we have been practising for the parade - NPDP, in groups A and B. And Group A comes in from the canteen side and leaves by the canteen side. =( I wanted to be at the trophy cabinet and end at the canteen. Then can march more (: I LIKE THIS WEEK A LOT. This week is so much stress-reduced. Watched a lot of movies, videos etc, well quite a few assignments to hand in. I want this kind more.

Today morning we had assembly in class, everyone went out to see the rainbow outside. =O Eh, lots of funfair stuff, I hope ours can get approved bah. Okay, it was a pretty weird day today. >< style="font-style: italic;">movement outside the classroom >< *fear* Apparently, lilaoshi didn't seem very happy. I don't know why. Geography was quite okay. LA was more of sharing of the movie Hero, and something interesting happened xD Jeslyn kept laughing to herself, then affect me and I start giggling too. So evil! It went on like THAT, until....*mm, nods head* 天啊 I am siao le. Hey, but Science wasn't easy. It's like bunny hop, one topic to another. I couldn't catch everything. 笨蛋. (Me lah)

Had History, CME, and eh.ah! Drama. History was okay, had to do mindmap. CME was ..yuck. I brought the thick thick NY book because she said we are supposed to bring, then she go use the textbook. And I must go and copy out a wenzhang for her. 14 people, 14 different wenzhangs eh. GOT topic somemore. She never specify bring what lor. Irritating. Obviously you can't show it right. And Drama was cool because we got to watch last year's Choral & Drama night performances =D But we are supposed to write down important points lah.

/*Homework list */
Math - QG1
Math - LG 1.1
Math - remedial worksheet
History - notes/mindmaps
Science - worksheet
Art - the sculpture worksheet.
Malay - study for quiz ( =l )
CME - copy wenzhang -.-
Others - type out CIP reflection. [Monitress so evil, throw me the job to do =O =O! no lah no lah. :)]

Still must do a lot of the regular stuff. Horrid. ACT today was challenging, because we had four people in Grp A at first only :O Actually after drama we dashed out and were looking down the quad. I think we were seen. Oh yah. I nearly lost my voice. I thought I sounded like a croaking frog. or chicken. Lynn was very tired because she gave timing before we came. At least armswing coordination was better than I expected :) We did the basic commands we learnt before, and sometimes when 42 was not with us, we got to do those newer drills (: I counted, and we only did one hormat! So sad right? I had been hoping to do hormat kekanan and kekiri. It's one in the whole ACT. Rare wor.

The scary thing was blind drills. Oh my gosh. I was very scared, after 上次. I remember Hui Han was on my right, and when we kekenan lurus, I could feel her shoulder. Then after a short while, she vanished le. =X Ma'ams gave us commands and I could hear that we all doing different things, but I ended up on the correct side! And I got turn 90 degrees. At least I wasn't facing the toilet or something. I think I knocked into many people. SO diu lian. After that squadmates changed and went to watch Scarlet, but I went home. Zi Han changed her mind and went to support her friend. Pei Yin, Zi Han and I spent a long time in the canteen. And so isolated. Quiet quiet and somehow gloomy.

Hope that we can have recre soon or something! Then can recollect all those nice memories we have had from the past (: Or squadtalk woohoo. I hope that one day all of us will come down to quad and we can have full squad. It will be soo awesome! And DALT DINNER is coming soon. And also the sale. So many things. This post is getting draggy. =X

So many things to do! Got geog worksheet, science worksheet, cl annotation for textbook, market research, SIAs (the most pressurising). I'm going to die. History was interesting, then I enjoyed music, because I just need to shake the rainstick and hit drumsticks in 1-2-3-4 continuously. But very hard to focus, me distracted a lot. And LA was movie watching (:, there was NO maths woohoo! And there was Chinese. Chinese is better than Maths. I was very ..um because Nicole borrowed my dictionary and I nearly had to copy 10 pages of dictionary (small print) because I never "bring" it. My teacher stare at me very long, like she not convinced.

Well, she was in class for 2 and half hours the whole time, and after that there was this Chinese talk thing. When it ended, all of us started chionging to change. So I think we started very late, compared to usual times, and we marched, and also got to the part where we rehearsed the parade. And halfway, I go and smash my own hand when carrying the bench ==" All squadmates were on the other side trying to "throw" it over, and my whole side of the bench was thrown over. I was like one person only, against the force of so many people. I only feel numbness now. At least there wasn't anything that went very wrong. Be thankful for that.

I received this FOL thingy from the library and I realised I neglected the CIP for quite some time =O Maybe one day I will try to volunteer for some of the duties and get CIP hours. Homework! =(

*edit: hey my dad's basketball friend was on tv, the 抢摊 show. He was the chef teaching dunno who. Just thought it was kinda cool (:*

This is basically nothing :O Trying to have a short post, well, I kinda liked today. Had volleyball, but all the netball people on my side were contacting the ball. Then I was like very extra. -.- And my serve is sucky. Before that, Miss Chia didn't come, and half the lesson no one was in class. So Mr Lim thumped in and started to teach with his graphical mindmap. Physical force = one fist o.O Lunch was longg, which is good. I brought xiao hai to class, and Jacinta so sad. =( Crappish. Um, there was souvenirs meeting and we finally picked what we wanted to do. [There were Zi Han, Yan Ni and Puay Ling present, cool (: ] Now must do proposal. Ah. Market research =O Last time I did was in P5 I think. Everyone will be late tomorrow, I wonder what will happen. What if I can't change in time? Teachers always dismiss late. Gah.

My eyes nearly popped out today, I stayed awake for so long yesterday to rush my work, and was forcing myself to stay awake. I feel pain in my eyes. Ow ow. I must sleep early today.

I went to Mian Jun's house to do Geography and History, and I thought I would be late =O I reached MRT at 9.04am apparently. Haha, and Mian Jun came afterwards. She called Si Lei and she was still at Ang Mo Kio. I was surprised xD I thought I was the latest. So we just went back to her house and I saw everyone present. I had 心理准备 that I would see ma'am le. Haha. :) They were all very warm and I just settled down in the computer room, I also was shocked lol. After that, we did research on volcanic eruptions because I thought it was very cool. And aiya, the one about the prisoner very interesting. Mian Jun was okay with it :) I like volcanoes. I mean, I like reading about them. Then we got started, oh, still got some more to do lah. Mian Rong ma'am came in once in a while to chat with us, and then she left the house and headed for the library.

Then after about one hour, Si Lei was coming up, then Mian Jun went to open the door. Then we realised ma'am was staring at Si Lei when they met for 20 seconds before she recalled who she was :P Hahas. We kept doing, but our progress was slow lol. (I feel tired already, still haven't finished geog wksht and maths written task) I like the information we got actually, because at first I was very disappointed, when I couldn't find the same information I had read at home before. You know hor, I read about Mount Pelee even before we were given this SIA? I'm so pro. But we got them eventually. (:

We thought Wanton was coming to do history SIA afterwards, and Si Lei almost wanted to go le. But then, Wanton smsed Mian Jun saying that she got ear infection and couldn't come =X, so we were like huh. Then she switched jobs with me, but I don't think it's easier at all. I hate doing bibliography. I took like 20 minutes the other time to do one page of it. But I like doing cover pages and the others. We ate lunch, and it was yummy. Si Lei also stayed back and we continued doing our geog. At least we got to the action plan, we have the brief details. My brain nearly stopped working halfway. Mian Jun's relatives came by, and they played a bit outside. The three of us were like talking about random stuff and we went to search wiki for our primary school :D My school is old.

Then Mian Rong ma'am came back and she brought in Mr Lonely, so cute! But ma'am and Mian Jun kept saying it was fat. No lol, actually Si Hui's hamster is fatter. Si Lei wasn't a big fan of hamsters, so she didn't play. I grabbed it and then I put in on my hands, but hor, it was running all around can. =O I was like, "Eh! This hamster so hyperr one! It's biting my finger." Was hoping that it wouldn't fall. It's like so full of energy! I was pretty used to the biting because every time I went to Si Hui's house I would get bitten by Hammy. But then Mr Lonely was so fast. So cute :D

Anyway, we finished at around 4 and I headed back home. Woots, I felt so tired. But today was a better day compared to yesterday.

APRIL 12 2008 - Saturday
It was hair-tearing yesterday and Friday because Jacinta and I was afraid we would forget what to bring, then both of us were on MSN chatting, and we even made up a timeplan for yesterday. We are so organised. Well, Puay Ling was not able to use the computer and we sent it to her yesterday, the day itself. I was so scared. But anyway, we were excited we could pin on our 3rd class and safety first badges (: And also our rank!

I took 174 and it was like what. 2 hours to reach school? What was that. So ridiculous can. The most ridiculous thing haven't happened yet. Jacinta was supposed to meet me in school and I made her wait for like 45 plus mins. Sorry Jacinta =( I left my house on time, and had 1 hour allowance, but I was still late. We sort of made our u look better in the toilet, and tried to align everything. It was around 11 plus at that time. After everything was done, Puay Ling called us and said she didnt have her ___ =O So we went coro to buy lunch, bubble tea, snacks, and drinks for our lunch, as well as dinner.

It was quite interesting, my first time going out with another squadmate only, if i'm not wrong. Oh I remember I went out with Pei Ting once before. Haha. Yep, then I spent so much money in one day, especially the bubble tea. We rushed back to school and we saw Puay Ling (: She was in mufti le. Then we chionged, gobbled down our lunch, packed our bags, and changed. It was like rush hour. Never felt this way before. When we were done, we quickly cleared everything and we saw Yi Jia (: *waved*

So, we took 170, and Puay Ling met her friend on there, who was kind enough to tell us where we should drop off at. We've never been to ACS Barker. At least we weren't late, and managed to get back on schedule. We went to this toilet, and was surprised that there was no one, and it was very clean. Then we were afraid people might see us, so we all put on beret and stuff in one cubicle after we changed. I was sweating and sweating. Finally we were done, but only 20 minutes left to find ma'ams. We got out and started looking everywhere. We only saw Boys' Brigades and it was so much panicking. I called Yung Hian ma'am, and she kindly said she would help us to locate where we should go to. We felt relieved for a bit, and suddenly my bag started vibrating -.- Imagine all the things we were carrying. Shoebag, uniform cover, bags, dinner. I was digging and digging. Zhi Yi ma'am got back to us and said we were to go to the carpark. And great, we ran and ran then we found ma'ams. =O *pant pant pant*

Um, there was Hui Shan ma'am, Zhi Yi ma'am, Puay Ling, Jacinta and me for yesterday. Jacinta kept telling me got a lot of seats, so I thought a lot of people from area 15 will be around, but somehow it didn't seem that much. It was horridly horrid. On the bus, I was talking to squadmates, and everything was going ok. We reached HTA, and there was a small hiccup because we were lagging behind. We passed the stickers to ma'ams, but we didn't have enough, so we were trying to get the attention of the sir, and he was like, "Oh, you all not enough ah? Don't worry, I have a lot in my bag!" :) Then he pulled one out and we got over that one. But ma'ams were far away, and because we had to stand in a single file, we couldn't do much.

After that we stood in 3 rows, and we were behind, and ma'ams were in front. I felt so 失败 because our stuff kept dropping, and ma'am had to help us. =( And things kept getting worse. We were supposed to get seated and we were just shifting inwards, when the first row had one empty seat. They were calling one of us to shift over, and Jacinta just took her bags over and we got separated. Sorry we hurt your feelings Jacinta =( She was hurt, I felt terrible inside also. Other schools settled in, and there was no way out. We tried, and nope. =X 心里面觉得很沉重. 我情愿坐在那里的是我. (Midway, we passed Jacinta's food to her, but I don't think she could consume, and we also passed a note to her. 对不起!)

We all love you :) I spotted Alicia, then Jia Yuin ma'am, and wow, ma'am and Alicia looked so zai!! I was inspired and impressed. 对NYNP 的骄傲感. After that, Glenda and Katherine ma'am marched towards our side in the middle of the parade. Flag flying up high. Oh yes, we did sing the National Anthem, with everyone saluting at the same time. It was low-tone. There was a fancy drill where they wore their uniform with coloured bands and they had rifles. The cool part was they belok-ed and it looked very awesome. They also spinned their rifles. I want to learn fancy drill also. We watched the contingents which came back in with the fancy drill squad, run all the way out.

Oh yep, someone asked us a very hard-to-answer question. It was a simple yes or no answer. But it was so hard. =( In between the whole thing, Puay Ling and I were discussing about something very important too. I was jotting down the stuff. At the end, we quickly passed ma'ams some food, and we were soon allowed to go. Ma'ams asked us if we were waiting for our squadmates, at first we wanted to pass our drinks to ma'ams and squadmates, but it seemed like they won't be ending soon, so we decided not to wait. Before we left, we had to change into mufti, but ma'ams went ahead of us, and they marched off. We felt soooo lost. What were we supposed to do now? Maybe we should wait for squadmates. We made up our mind to change out of full u first. Got into a toilet, similarly it was not very crowded. And I changed in same cubicle as Jacinta. =X She's bian tai. Fine. That's not the point. We still had 焦虑的心情. Packed our bags and shoe bags, left the toilet.

Now, what do we do? I felt like a primary one kid who just started school. No one told us what to do. No one guided us. Maybe it's part of growing up. Being independent? Puay Ling called ma'am, and we were told to march out of HTA. Ok. So since we were given the orders, we just did it. We began marching, it was not smooth, our bags were clashing, and I felt that the stuff I was carrying was so heavy. Heavier than my schoolbag, something that everyone says is so heavy. March, march, march. I thought we could end this frightening night once and for all. It's just soon after, someone YELLED, "Berhenti!". I was so at loss. I was actually supposed to give commands, and we did all the belok and cepat jalan before. Puay Ling was giving timing. I didn't know if we were supposed to do the command. I was frightened badly. Guess what happened? It's too horrid to be said. I can never get the scene off my head. I even had a nightmare when I got home. Is this supposed to be happening to us? I wanted to break down.

But no, we were representing NYNP, we called ma'ams, and they said to continue marching. Jacinta was feeling very uncomfortable too. We felt so upset. We did nothing wrong. It's so hard, so tough. Higher rank vs our ma'ams. It's such a horrid dilemma. Fine. I plucked up my courage, commanded the three of us again. Off we march. Kept going, kept going. Even though you are battling with yourself. Finally, "sekuad berhenti!", I gave the last command. It was over. It was a nightmare. A nightmare I would never forget.

We walked to the bus stop, all feeling uneasy and frightened. But the bus stop was simply filled with people. There were also people cutting in front of us. There was no way we could go home at this rate, it is like a stretch of packed people on the lane. Again, three of us, braving ourselves up, decided to take the risk and walk one bus stop back. We did not even know how far away it was. It was really terrifying. It was a dark lane, with a few lights brighting up, there were so much trees around. I could not see anything. It was okay at first, slowly, slowly, as we moved further and further away from the bus stop, fear came towards us. We felt so abandoned, ____ would never let this happen to us. I could feel the danger also. There was no one around. We held hands and kept on walking, there it is. We saw our destination. But there was this stone-like thing, like a tomb. I kept it to myself.

我要你陪着我，看着那海 龟水中游。。。We began singing, trying to forget about all the unpleasant things. Looking at the bright stars, we also sang wo ke yi. We covered our fears, pretended to stay happy. The bus came, and we flagged for it desperately. On the bus, we felt so much safer, so much better. However, Jacinta's bag started leaking, and there was a puddle of water which was in it, we quickly got off the bus, and went to one corner to empty her bag and dry it. 小孩looked like it peed all over itself, and there were traces of it all over its mouth (: Puay Ling said she got a lot of hands, and was taking everything lol. We were laughing so much. Jacinta was not so happy lah. xD We began having our pathetic dinner, it was so insufficient. =( But we had to go home. I got onto the train to Jurong East with Jacinta, and Puay Ling took the other way. I talked to Jacinta on the train, kind of like heart-to-heart type. And we felt so much. It was pretty silent, and solemn. I really hope it is an misunderstanding, but it doesn't seem to be. What should we do?

When we left Puay Ling, I called my dad, and my sis was coming home from a party, and because of that, I was lucky enough to hitch a ride home with all my things dangling. If someone were to crash into me on the train, I would probably have problems bending down to pick things up, because if I pick one up, I will drop another. I got home and I fell asleep very quickly. It was a very tiring day. I don't know. =( It didn't seem right.

So many things happened today. My gosh. At the start was PE lesson, changed in locker room o.O and ran eight rounds around the hall. That's a big number. Kinda horrid at volleyball. Later was maths, and we did graphs, haha so fun. At least I was alert. For LA, the small actress playing Scout in the TKAM was so cute (: I liked the movie a lot, but I think we will be reviewing the movie =( Lunchtime was a bit weird weird, because I was rushing my food down, and then we went to find out about NPAP stuff, but. nothing much was revealed.

(This weekend I'm soo busy. Sat: Music Project, The parade, trying to slot in ivp meet up too. // Sun: Geog, History SIAs) Like the whole weekend from morning to night also have things.

Well, then there was home econs and Malay :D You know what? We learnt this gay little song that refers to the chopping of ducks and geese, but then there's this grandma dancing in between. The actions and words are like..don't match. I mean, I was reasoning with my tablemate, why would chopping be linked to a dance? You mean you chop the animals and you start dancing? o.O I always dislike doing stuff that I don't understand. =X

Yep, then there was maths remedial. Happily I finished my remedial worksheet in time (: I left the classroom 2/7, and walked out, wanted to call Yi Jia since she was free, no meeting up for open house. And she was right there =D Haha, I can save phone bills with my extraordinary powers. What crap. I'm going crazy. Right, then we spent time with Glenda and Pei Yin going around the school, went Popular buy food and stationery, then sat down to talk about stuff. We were um, bored so we wanted to borrow a ball. It totally seemed so odd. I have no idea why. It's like putting ice cream into tomato sauce. I was feeling that. Spending soo long to get a ball. We went SAC and. argh. All the balls are like bo air. Dumb. The horridest thing I've ever done is stepping into, no, standing outside SAC today. I have no idea what I was doing. Creepy and :O Something is wrong with me.

I want to knock my head against the wall le. :( And there's so much due tomorrow, gotta prep u. :O :O I hope everything goes well tomorrow *crosses fingers* And I wish many miracles can happen, like I can have my dreams and wishes come true, and maybe I can be smarter. On the bright side, it's a Friday tomorrow. Annd the dayy after is a Saturday. Okay, a lot of projects, but I'm looking forward to NPAP. The only special parade I took part in was the school National Day parade last year. I've a feeling that this one will be really cool =D

*Something that happened today morning: I saw Lynn at the bus stop today, have never seen her there before (: Rare occurrence

I was worried about LG3 today, but well handed in le, shall just forget about it. Can you believe that you can have 1 hour doing anything you want, in an air-con room? Got computers some more, but I never use lah. During Art, the teacher had meeting then all of us were just sitting in there doing random stuff. I was sleepy. Almost fell asleep, then I went to watch Hui Ker they all play the flying game, and the marble one.

After that it was going home time, Pei Yin called me when I was helping some OM classmates do their moon, haha, I'm a tape cutter. xD Then soon I went down, and I was walking awkwardly, struggling to put on my bag properly. (Today hor I saw a lot of stuff. Nevermind.) So I ate a bit in the canteen and went off with Pei Yin after a while. Boarded 174, and I was very very irritated by these two guys who looked like they were so much older than us, and they were acting like kids. What's with the tapping thing? And they even go and take lighter and play on the bus! It was damn frustrating. I almost felt like shouting at them can. It's just that I was younger and didn't want to make it awkward for all.

Right, then I got off at interchange, and I was the first in the line (: Haha, means that bus left when I arrived or something lor. Or it's not a busy time of the day. Yeah, uh..Okay, so the bus came and I got up, and I was happy that I got to choose the seats first, the feeling you get when you go home early, not very early but yep, and I was facing the interchange and settling down, when I felt THE presence of .... [O: eep.] Anyway, I reached home and sleep sleep sleep. But my mum go and wake me up. =( I want sleep some more. I should be doing my homework now, what am I doing. I forgot to add for last post that I enjoyed Tetrafide's performance a lot, and sometimes their composed pieces will start floating around in my head. There's math ... remedial tomorrow. I'm so horrid at it. I feel like an owl. Most probably need to stay up to do assignments/written tasks. I don't think can finish them all though. Hope to start on them.

And yesterday was ACT (: Our drills seemed to improve! Also, 40 ma'ams were given corporal ranks and we BECAME Lance Corporals! =D Imagine. later during ATC, we can report for camp as a lance corporal. So cool.

TEAM ONE GOT FIRST RUNNER UP!
NYCT TEAM 1: Yuan Han ma'am, Huishan Ma'am, Jie Qi ma'am, Amelia ma'am, Chuxi ma'am, Ping Ting ma'am, Wen Xian, Pei Ting and Esther :D
NYCT TEAM 2: Yin Hwee ma'am, Jin Qing ma'am, Jomain ma'am, Zhi Yi ma'am, Ying Yun ma'am, Mei Chun ma'am, Hui Cong ma'am, Puay Ling, Jacinta, Clarissa and me!

I feel rather happy (: But I didn't get to watch the live pitch, it's a big disappointment for me. I heard that a lot of competition, quite tight, but we made it (: Even though it may not be first, but it is still really awesome. I was like sick =X It's so irritating! Forget about it =D I was thrilled to hear that news on Saturday anyway! GO NYCT!

Today I went to Wan Ting's house to do Physics SIA and I took 174, the opposite way, very 难得 actually, but I kinda got lost, I was not sure if it was correct stop that I dropped off. When I confirmed, I didn't know how to walk lol. So I called her and she haven't reached home from piano, and I waited at the bus stop. There was this person smoking, and my nose was very sensitive to it. Kept running. And she arrived and I followed her, and Baoxian was there already xD I was quite surprised. We finished just after lunch time, and Baoxian and I got a lift to West Mall, and Baoxian headed to her grandma's house and I decided to buy something from Breadtalk, bought four dollars worth of bread, quite a lot actually. Then took bus back to interchange and bought some food from Jurong Point too before heading home. Because no lunch at home. I ate like almost everything when I reached home. I have an exceptionally big appetite. Hm, I think that's about it.

And tomorrow we are going to clear the CT stuff =(

(: Nowadays, I file lots of stuff under the category NYNP. So I felt that today went rather..smoothly? According to timetable, it's geography and we learnt about rocks. Don't know why, but I have this interest in rocks (: During LA, we shared poems for the whole lesson, so was quite relaxed. I dislike each LA lesson, it's like if you tell me, the next lesson is LA, I will go, oh no, I don't want to go. I don't remembering looking forward to it many times. And we got back History block test. =( I did badly..*frowns*

Before Drama started, Jacinta was talking to me, she was walking with Alicia, when Jiajia and I walked to the Music Room. I admit I said the wrong thing lol. After that we changed into PT kit, we waited for other squadmates who were late from class. I felt so warm today, oppressed feeling. We actually were lost, since we didn't see squadmates at pitch, then we went towards NP room. Carried equipment, and ma'ams said that the pegs were hardest to hold, because will drop. Not good. We didn't exactly pitch, we learnt pegging (aligning), door flap (tying), bowline-ing (with ring) and unpitching, folding the sheets.

I like pegging, although I'm not very good at it. I got the feeling that I wanted to peg - when I touched the peg, the ground and the mud =P! I thought Jacinta was very ..agitated, like the way she peg, look like she want to kill someone. =D Aiya, I peg slow slow. Then after that for door flap, I was horrible at it lor. It's like you start folding and rolling it, then you need to stretch your hands to the entire thing to get that tension needed. With two hands, you need to tie reef knot along with the no-crease door flaps. At first was Nicole and Puay Ling do, and they did better than me haha. Then I did with Jacinta, and it was Jiajia, Yan Ni and Hui Han!

Bowline-ing. Fun fun! But I need to improve a lot, speed especially. Then we got to pull guylines (: Shout across to the other side and like coordinate between two squadmates. Hui Han had some problems, and there was time limit, so I was trying to teach her how to tie, was rushing rushing and panicking. Maybe, squadmates are in fact better than me, at first when I learnt guyline for basha, I tied the guyline wrongly. Slipknot never pull the below twine. Hui Han also had that problem. xD

*edit* Our second campcraft lesson!

While we were doing tent, Team 1 squadmates were pitching their 16 minute pitch on the other side. (: Finals are tomorrow for them! Three cheers and three cheers and three cheers to NYNP :) Hope that squadmates will enjoy the pitch for their FINALS, 没有遗憾!

I haven't been blogging a lot for these days, because I was sick! Missed so much lessons, missed our lovely 41 squad birthday, and a lot more.

Two days is actually very precious, I realise. And I think there is a maths quiz, I'm afraid of maths, after all the trouble and frustrations it gave me. I haven't learnt how to solve linear equations with graph. All classmates seemed to be chionging LA and CL worksheets, but I don't have mine. I feel quite nervous also, because I sneaked on again to use the computer. I heard from squadmates that 38 ma'ams came back, and they sang birthday song. Missed out on a lot, especially ivp, I sort of let down my group members because I didn't go to school.

On Monday, I woke up at 4.30am to go to school early and talk to CT squadmates because we were feeling down that time, and because I saw the doctor on Sunday, my dad shouted at me, said that I shouldn't go and everything. And say what, I want to go 找死. I merely wanted to go to school and also, I was quite proud for finishing my work even before I saw the doctor on Sunday. Then he screamed at me the whole morning. I couldn't take it. I had no choice but to go back on the bed and covered myself with a pillow. Today, I woke up, but then in the end, they go and secretly prepare everything, my sister already left the house, so I was once again at home.

When you are at home alone, you really tend to think a lot. And even though I got so much sleep, my mind couldn't rest at all. I was worried about school work, ivp lessons, squadmates, 3rd class, CT, NP, so much, so much. I don't think I'm seriously sick, but my phlegm from nose entered the throat, so the throat got lots of that. Is it that serious? Two days MC. Well, it's back to school tomorrow, and I hope I won't get drowsy in class. I'm afraid of getting back my block tests actually. I am rarely afraid of anything (concrete), like ghosts, darkness, cockroaches, because I'm more afraid of myself. I tell myself this and that, and it chokes up everything.

Eew, I think I sound so old. Don't think so much le, I look forward to school and seeing squadmates, but not the quizzes and everything yet (because I know I will fail), I want a day or two to clarify things with my classmates and teachers. -.- THE HAPPY THING TODAY IS, ITS APRIL DA FIRST!

HAPPY SQUAD BIRTHDAY! HAPPY 41 DAY! FORTYONE (:

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Still growing up in the midst of university. My friends tell me I think a lot, which could be good or bad depending on how you see it. I'm currently studying Linguistics in NTU. At the same time, I am involved in NPCC and various school activities. I guess this blog will include bits and pieces of my new experiences for sharing! Definitely looking forward to trying and learning new things <3

NYNPCCDALT 41, NYCT2'08, NYCT2'10, 202'08, 406'09
NPAP'09, Dramafeste '11/12, CIBTC J11
Hall 6 13/14

→ Taylor Swift 1st CD!
→ A nice camera to take photos
→ The Hunger Games series
→ Justin Bieber CD - My World 2.0
→ First Step 2 Forever
→ New school stuff.

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