This is scary! It's already almost one month into being a J2, to be honest I still feel like a J1. Maybe it will sink in when the juniors start sharing our class bench. I never ever blogged about 11S7H, this is one of the rare times when I actually find time to. My own personal time to myself. I can't help it but think about how this year will fly by quickly and that I'm going to have to be working hard a lot more. Even more, JC life is really so short as compared to time in NY.
From last year to this point of time, I've actually tried out so many things. Going for my first TSwift concert, doing publicity and lights/sounds for Dramafeste 11, becoming a CI of 80th CIBTC (then going for CII for the 81st, which I never thought I was up to it, because the actual course is 3 weeks long, not forgetting preparation work). It's not a surprise I'm in DALT, but I've also joined Sensorium Vale. There's also SL with little kids :) and PW as well. School's been a roller coaster ride for me.
There's this thing I really hope for though, for the best in this one team (yes because we're all made of one) that is probably working hard in this trying period of time. Believe in yourselves, believe the journey is going to be worthwhile. Make every single second count. Imagine every single person trying to 并肩作战 in a relay, you may dazzle everyone. It's really one thing when you see that endless potential but another thing how one is going to unleash it, it's so far yet so close.
You may not get what you love but you can always love what you get. It's just a few more laps away, if you're hoping for it to be over; it's just a blink of an eye, if you know you're going to miss it. It's really a matter of perspective (like how you view a half-filled glass as half full or half empty)!
I'm still learning how to be a better person and sometimes I really wonder, what am I made of? It's tough persevering in things I do (like studies) while staying true to myself. I don't wish to lose myself in this whirlwind going on. As much as I hate to say this, as I grow, it's expected of you to understand others, learn the 'way of life', communicate with people, in a complex manner. It's not wrong to think, I always think a lot more, but it's strange how people are over-thinking. It feels like we're using so much energy when we can translate all the energy into action.
I miss blogging actually, to keep all the bits of life close to me. It is especially the case when I get to spend quality time with people close to me in outings, random chat sessions and morning circles. <3 I think these are things that keep me going and motivated. Of course I know sometimes I should be moving ahead by pushing myself but I am glad about such little things.
Let's enjoy the Dragon lunar new year and I hope to find my direction in life soon, I wonder what I will do in the future. Now, looking forward to good food and rest! :)
Sunday, January 23, 2011{ 10:41 PM }
Just in a blink of an eye, a new year has begun. New resolutions, new school, everything new.
IP week was slow-moving, but good enough for me to start adapting. I'm glad we were together as a class :) Hanging around sometimes because we didn't go for a certain lecture or just sharing our life stories (not that we're that old), it's great :) 406!
Oh yeah, the JC section (plus the high school section) is so huge, it's pretty scary! Plus meeting new people, choosing subject combis and ccas, wow. Hoping I make the right choices. Talking about CCAs, I want to join a sport CCA. I've been wanting to play floorball before I entered JC, but at open house, i heard about tchoukball and tried 2 sessions, and now I can't decide between the two. Both has its pros and cons hmm, be it the days, type of sport, or how much my heart wants to go for it :) I like the feeling of gliding across the floor during floorball and using techniques to play in the team. I too like the feeling of being in the air during tchoukball and doing the passes and shots. LOL. I never thought I could actually think in the air. I think I'm too lousy at it though, so that kinda sucks a little. I can't really decide.
Umm, yeah I have been troubled too. I just had this realisation about my life, which is, I always don't get what I hope for. Yeah, like who doesn't get that? But it has happened to me so many times that I wonder if I should just let things run their courses. But again, what happened to making things worthwhile and being in control of your life? It feels sad to just let things go by and see what happens. But when trying to make use of opportunities, I start to have expectations of myself and goals, when things don't go the way they should, the fall is really hard. There's always these two similar paths I face all the time, sometimes I don't know which way I should take each time. I get worn out after the process all the time. ):
Still, I won't let myself feel small and shall just work hard in everything I do. Jiayou jiayou, and to whoever is reading this :P (If you read this, you should leave a tag too, so I can visit your blog! :) )
P.S. Bright side - TS!! (:
Wednesday, November 17, 2010{ 10:02 PM }
the thankyou list is so long ): i don't think i can make it haha.
okay let's look on the bright side! went for world kindness day and there was this appreciation dinner kind of thing. i love the little figurine they gave us! it's so cute! haha but i guess they were under-catered, pretty funny. i was very impressed because the people there, they really have big hearts! went with yijia to walk around clarke quay afterwards and we turned back because we couldn't go to clubs lol, but we went to buy little snacks in the mall. ;)
now onto jobs! huiling has got a job. you start this week right? lol i should go buy ice cream from you. i think i want a job too. but don't know if it's possible..
i don't know if i should be happy or sad about that. let's just say the future is honestly unpredictable. i can't even do anything.
and onto songs! taylor swift songs :D so excited for next year. (not too much of the jc life, but something fun is coming up!)
you should also watch this awesome video shot in nanyang :D
Friday, November 5, 2010{ 3:44 PM }
i don't know what kind of 心情 i should be having to write this. but we've graduated! so proud of everyone. seems like we just were thinking what graduation would be like a few months back, but it's like over. less than 24 hours ago, we were sitting in the hall, excited and nervous going up stage lol.
we started the day yesterday in the audi, watching all our memories that are compiled into montages, ours was too long lol. thereafter i went with peiting to the library to invigilate 42's test, when we went back, the class was like half cleaned up! we were taking so many pictures, going about with group photos while collecting our report books.
our ft mr chan and co-ft mrs chew were speaking to us about things, like how we've been an awesome class and how mr chan will be leaving NY. i guess at then, it still didn't really hit us that we were leaving, we were all just feeling smiley :)
after that the five of us except emily went to yingyue's house after eating, and it was just very relaxing there haha. showered, watched movie, just hanged out. emily came after that. i think we should go yy's house to play often :D we changed and all, then it was time to go already, time went on pretty fast.
graduation ceremony was long haha. i think people around me like jinyi and melissa were nervous too, wanting to pee and stuff. lol then when i heard them saying that, i was afraid too! my hands were cold, probably because there was air con. ahh. yep we took our final class bow thereafter. time just moved super fast, don't you think?
there was still prize presentation and reception. in between i was still chatting with people in our seats haha. looked for my parents and took photos with them, ate with them before they had to go. so i stayed back and joined the classmates' circle haha. sorry i didn't really spend time the night with squadmates! ): i wrote notes for yall but didn't have the chance to pass to yall leh ):
moved around with yingyue looking for food haha, and she was stunned by the purple pau magic somehow, funny incident! xD it was really nice sitting under the night sky, under the stars and just chatting with my classmates, hearing the wonderful laughter and jokes. i know i will miss this special atmosphere.
nicole was with her parents and squadmates i think. i didn't know why but i think yingyue and i were feeling kinda sad when emily was saying bye to all of us. haha but then she came back again! lol then we had to say goodbye again. aiyo once was enough already lol. i went home after that with huiling's car :D yingyue left as we walked out of the quadrangle too.
felt tired when i reached home but nevertheless i still went online hehe. as i looked at the profiles and photos, lots of memories came back. there were also many mixed feelings.
to my lovely 202 classmates, i really enjoyed my time with yall! i know i wrote a long blog entry when i was about to enter sec 3, this is why this isn't so long now :) but the times we spent were awesome. just recently in the bbq dinner we had, we were already sharing all the memories we had lol. i'm amazed at everybody's brainpower hehe. i know i will miss yall also, so when we enter jc, we are still going to go for class outings okay! don't forget to say hi! i will say hi but i'm easily stoning and distracted lol.
to my beloved 406 classmates, especially emily, nicole, huiling and yingyue :) i remember the time we all first met, how apprehensive i was, to doing projects together, having lunches/breaks together, going to one another's houses, even beginning to go out for fun. you guys are so loveable, adorable and cute. haha yes i said that. yall are always doing funny things and those things always crack me up and make me giggle. or sometimes, laugh till my jaws feel like dropping or my stomach hurts so much.
i know and i remember, whenever i'm feeling down or anything, you guys will always and never fail to cheer me up. with all your antics :) emily singing like nobody's business, yingyue wriggling around and her wise words, nicole's baby talk and angry face and huiling's cat meows and classic lines. (wow got tears in my eyes as i write this. i wanna give yall a hug now!)
yall can be really smart and witty yet yall can be like little kids at times haha. i shall quote a recent example. when there was a milo truck in school, we were like trying to look for it (more of like emily and yingyue), then nicole and i were behind (huiling was sick), then suddenly the two of them started running o: and i was like oh no are we gonna run. haha then i saw the green too and i ended up running too xD nicole was the only calm one. i was so amused by your faces of satisfaction as yall drank the small little cup of milo. you guys are very unique in your own ways, stay the way you are :) haha yingyue you can choose if you wanna wriggle or not!
of course, many many classmates i wanna thank and hug too. i know between each of you and me, i'm sure there will be a little story or episode in the past 2 years and i'm really glad about that :) you've coloured my lives a lot! we've worked on so many things together, OBS, GRACES camp, iBounce and more. special thanks to emily (haha again!), huishan, jinyi for being my tablemates in maths class. (and the other 406ers in maths class like justina, grace and crystal) it has been super enjoyable being with yall, random things that always happen xD i know we always stop for the toilet on our way to the library (i go the most often lol), discussions about the maths during class, ahh i rmb, the competition in class where we did tic tac toe with maths and the cute big flower pens we were so innocently happy about!
i'm super grateful to ms yeo, she's made an impact on me, thank you so much ms yeo! i'm gonna work hard! of course, i wanna thank all my subject teachers, especially mr chan, mrs chew, ms chen and ms sebastian.
the people i talk to almost every morning - nat and mel and jinyi (sometimes xD), it's been 2 years already! standing in a line every day, oddly, was how we got closer to one another. i think it's a pretty weird way how we got to know one another but lol! assembly times we would be talking about things that are happening and how we aren't happy about stuff lol. and exam times we would be spilling and exchanging and clarifying all our facts before we enter the classroom. haha classic. i'll miss yall! i won't see your faces when i turn around the next time. ):
to my dearest squadmates, i love you all :D we've met nearly since day 1. we've been through all the hardships and happiness, the ups and downs of our np lives haha. there's this indescribable bond between us. i know i will have a tendency to run towards yall when i see you guys, lol that's why sometimes i take the not-quadrangle way to class so i will catch up on my sleep or work. 4 years of squadmateship, it's priceless! even though sometimes we may not agree on things, but we will always end up doing a great job.
we make a great team, i shall call it the 41 team, the one and only batch 41 :) it's really funny how we always end up with squad jokes or squad slangs lol. rabbit island? bobo? i still recall the good/sad times we've went through.
i'm only listing some! first parade of sec 1 (i think there was an article on that haha), CT'08 (how we really bonded as a team but we sort of came crashing down ): ), NPAP'09 (all the laughable things we did and heard about, changing desperately fast in the acsb toilet, i think we were late once?), becoming 42's NCOs (at first we all didn't know what to expect but it really was a great experience, i've learnt a lot from sqdms and cadets. 42, stay strong and proud like a coconut tree! okay what am i saying. but just jiayou!), CT'10 (the first time i became captain, and it's to my team (team 2) also. working together was unforgettable i tell you.) I just want to say I appreciate every one of you squids okay! You might think I might not love you as much hehe but I do! :)
right now, i think i'm beginning to miss my 406 classmates and squadmates a lot. all the people i've known too. i might ATTEMPT to write a thankyou list lol, but i hope if i write it yall won't get mad because i'm careless and left out names accidentally or never write a lot :P
i'm so lucky all these things happened, be it happy or unhappy events, they happened. in my 4 years in nanyang, i've met so many amazing and wonderful friends, teachers, people and squadmates. i wouldn't know what i would have done, or even, what i would have become if i hadn't met you all. i just wanna say THANK YOU. You guys have made me a better person, stronger and tougher than before and I really hope I have done the same for you, even a teeny weeny bit will do!! :) and that you will remember me! :)
p.s. trust me, the fact that we've graduated hasn't hit me hard yet. but it's beginning to hit me more and more by the second and this feeling doesn't feel so good ):
you've might have noticed i would usually post a song with my entry, but there's no song that really suits this mood now~
Sunday, October 31, 2010{ 9:30 PM }
{ 9:00 PM }
yesterday was just a crazy but awesome day :D
the 2 days before that was mad too! those 2 days, attended the dramafest in school and the plays were really cool. the effects and plot. lol and the screamings made me jump. (not literally, but well my heart did jump.) alicia joined me on both days! my parents came on the first, squids like nicole and peiting came on the second day. also congrats to my sis! her class play got into the encore night. on the first night, all the judges' pick of the night were my choices in the audience voting! and on the second, two of the judges' pick were my choices haha! but my dinner for those nights weren't too good. instant noodles on the 1st night (that was my 3rd day eating instant noodles), 1 bun on the 2nd night.
yesterday wow. world kindness day briefing + shannon's birthday party + 202 class bbq! it was really cool, pretty excited for world kindness day. it will be on november 13, we'll be giving out flowers to the public. of course, we will try to share with them what the day is all about and get them to pass the flower on to someone they wanna thank so i hope it will be a success! xD went with caoji and yeehui to MICA, the room was really cool. i made flower balloons :) oh yeah i love the blue of the shirt they gave!
lunch then went off to shannon's party. met yingyue lol and took a bus to shannon's house, saw ny people like mun ning and justina. gave shannon her present and we played games. what kind of games, they were games like musical chairs and whacko. haha gosh, i couldn't stop smiling because it was really amusing how we went about introducing ourselves and names before we started playing. we sort of went back to childhood times in primary school. i remember how in primary school, i used to attend birthday parties with all such games lol. :D it was weird at first but it was great <3. so apologetic to shannon because i came late and left early!
went to class bbq after meeting haiyun at mrt, bought some chips. it's so odd because sihui, haiyun and I kept walking to and fro between the pit and her house and the guard house. but i liked hanging out with 202 classmates! huge thanks to the special few who got the fire started. :D it was so nostalgic when everyone was sharing their own bit of memory in the sec 1 and 2 days. it's really heartwarming! i realised we kept running to the buffet place to steal drinks haha. it seems very short, because we had to go at 9+. Nevertheless, I enjoyed the food and company, i think we need more gatherings. ;)
Reached home late and ended up super tired.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010{ 11:45 PM }
Two thoughts I had today. :) Shared them with zihan. It's kinda cool when you look around in class, and you see your classmates hard at work (sometimes :P) and you wonder which next important person they will be in life. I always read biographies of other people, especially when I was in primary school and it's like sometimes i see similarities between what i read and what i see. read - reading about the childhood of the important president/politician and see - seeing your classmates doing an experiment and just scribbling down stuff. it wouldn't be a surprise to have classmates who might become future ministers or something haha. i just wonder what i would be.
you know how you can just feel normal, towards life. i have a 'normal' line in this imaginary graph, whereby everything is actually going fine and smooth. that's the time when you don't feel sad or happy. but i think i have been feeling way way way down for a long time, at the 'unhappy' line, now when i'm just a little little bit closer to normal, i actually feel good now already lol. it's so strange and weird. i'm nowhere near my 'normal' line yet i feel as if i'm above that line and am at the 'happy' line or something. you probably wouldn't understand this and think i'm strange. no worries, you don't need to know haha!
well one thing you can do is to listen to the song ;)
Saturday, August 14, 2010{ 12:01 AM }
This post is just for me to say that I do keep blog entries, well they just aren't posted here, the long overdue CT reflections :) And everything else :D
Haha and somehow my sis and I were on the topic of blogs, and I was like saying no one will read my blog so I don't have to update. Then she said something along the line of no lor, i was the last tagger. so here i am, updating it to keep this blog alive ;)
Just about an hour back, it was 13th August, the day of NY funfair. iBounce was AWESOME. We had the coolest bouncing castle, slide and rodeo ride, lots of customers and it was really great spending quality time with everyone in 406.
Typing in a blog is a strange, a little unfamiliar kind of feeling for me. Other than that, it's the first time in no 1 uniform with squids *big grin*! Plus being able to see the YOG torch itself makes me feel really happy and proud. Enduring the parade and putting in effort for the training was worth it. I probably won't get the chance to march in a parade like this ever again, poof.
All right back to class stall :D Sad I didn't win an ipad, but congrats to all who have won! It's so fun how you get to talk about anything to your classmates, I never did think we would talk like we did today (: And going out to buy items with classmates I never really hung out with, but wow, I liked it so much! :D
Writing my appreciation for squadmates, unit, all the other UGs and of course 406 <3! :) Everyone xin1 ku3 le4, thank you so much! I will remember every little detail between squadmates and my beloved class. You guys rock! YAY!
Friday, March 5, 2010{ 12:56 PM }
We got through prelims! :D and now we are moving onto Finals.
The afternoon before we received the news, I was like thinking that everything around was horrible. Many factors, but if the news that we got into finals came now, it would outweight or mask everything else. And goodness, we did receive the news in the late afternoon that we got in!!
When I first heard the news, it felt like a dream, took quite long for the news to sink in. Yay. Great job NYCT2.
Finals is so near and we need to put in lots of effort to get where we want to be. Not easy I guess. And now my health is bad, bad sore throat and flu.
It's probably due to many factors, wearing a wet shirt, sleeping late everyday, hot weather, lack of water, seeing ortho, and teachers. But I can't help but wish that Mrs Chew had not come to school when she was sick and couldn't even speak, having to use the whiteboard to communicate. She was saying about responsibility and she didn't exactly do it D: Finals is very important to me and all little factors must be eliminated. I need training and good health during the finals itself!
Wish me luck, and take care, don't fall sick. Peter Szeto Yee !!
Thursday, February 4, 2010{ 11:58 PM }
Two days I turned 16. It was a great one, celebrated my birthday at home in advance. I brought a remaining slice to school to eat, thinking nothing much would happen. Then squadmates sang happy birthday to me, gave many presents - the awesome Yan Ni's notebook with a spastic picture of xiao zhu and xiao gui, Nicole's chocolate oreo cake (my 2nd cake), Aircon's ahem disposable pencil case, Yee Hui's figurines and CDs and sooo many lovely messages.
But why is it that two days later things are so different? I've always known that for CT you need to make sacrifices, first swimming, guitar, studies, NYAA? I must admit, I have been overly obssessed or into CT during the holidays, leading to my downfall. The passion is still lingering but I do regret. My NYAA is severely affected.
Now, currently what's happening is just dampening whatever I have left of myself. I spend one hour convincing people about CT everyday, and it's very tiring, mentally and physically after a long day at school (6 rounds and pushups and training, with a 2man pitch). It's very exhausting. I have to admit, I'm juggling my studies, CCA, competition and human relationship in a bad manner. It's bad enough. How do you strike a balance being rooted to your stand and taking in what people say? I may seem to be unreasonable or irritating, but I don't like forcing people to do things also. But I have to. It does not only affect us, whatever decisions we make, but others too. We need to be responsible for our actions.
Spending so much time is very taxing for me, but I hope it makes one feel better, or not as lousy as when I force it upon you. I do consider your viewpoints, but when you weigh things out, it may not be priority. Long term wise, things may happen.
Sometimes when I take your words fully, and I do it the way, I was unable to convince myself what I was doing. We don't have much time left, and the good gets rusty, how can we afford to play with time like that?
I can't afford regrets, I need to answer to myself. One can afford it when the time comes nearer when all are experienced.
