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: kheng wee, 2 february.
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I just feel that I needed some sort of way to record my feelings. Although one of my resolutions (kind of) is to look at the positive side of things and be more happy, sometimes I get this sad tingly feeling... For example, my dad told us to keep a certain day free as the whole extended family will be going to the usual buffet place for Chinese New Year lunch, like last year. The words "last year" triggered a emotion high for me unknowingly, because my brain automatically clicked back to last CNY lunch and I remembered my grandma being there, not just last year but also past buffets. Then it dawned upon me that the only difference this year is that she will not be there. All the memories just start flooding back, from the point where I went home one fine Friday to realise the horrible news and see her lying there, seeing the undertakers bring her out, all the way to helping to settle the funeral matters :( It went from unbelievable shock to mind blank to sadness to having to be strong. (because everyone was equally upset and it was the last little thing I could do)

It feels so surreal, just thinking about "last year" or every time I enter her room (now occupied with some of my dad's things). Sometimes I worry if I will end up forgetting her or having my memory fade out. I rarely cry but I remember how I cried so badly. So many things happened last year. I know life goes on (probably what some people would say) but I just get affected whenever I think back with any random triggers, going from high to low.

Some stuff also happened today, of course I was not as shaken as the last incident. I just hope the words were taken in from a certain first-hand perspective and let's hope for the best. Sometimes I just wish I could just drop some things and go back to the simple world (like training juniors more which is probably something my officers would happily welcome).
 

Time to worry, because school is starting soon. It's semester 2 wow, there are indeed a lot of things coming up. I'm hoping to put in more time on my studies though, because I know I can do better so I shall have to get my priorities right!

At this point of time, I am wondering if I should be working. It started when my previous employer at the florist shop texted me to ask if I can return for the Valentine's Day period since I worked last year. Can I call it a money crunch? I mean I know that I will not have problems getting by the semesters because my parents will pay my expenses, but it's not a nice feeling knowing that there are so many expenses... And furthermore, if I have a job I can pay for myself too. I'm pondering and balancing my options - perhaps taking a job, or selling old items or clothes. No doubt, I can foresee my family/friends asking me to focus on my studies and making full use of my time in university while it lasts.

So one thing is about earning money. The other thing is wanting to venture into writing or internship opportunities! It would be a nice challenge for myself, to pen down ideas. I saw this email about signing up for school's paper Nanyang Chronicle, it sounds like a way to start small but oh tian, I am getting myself in many things already. I might consider that in another semester > <

Ended my campcraft comp meeting late on Friday (and saw squadmates omg, would have loved to hang with them) so I went back to hall close to midnight. Speaking of hall, I think I am surviving okay in hall. Though there's so many things going on, the people are mostly friendly. But haha, I have this thing where I am a little afraid/hesitant to talk to seniors (maybe because from my UG background). And...most people around me are seniors. LOL, oh well.

There's this list of to-dos I need to settle as well! Random minutes, jotting on my organiser, send emails. Basketball. Hockey? (but I doubt we will train since IHG will not be anytime near) Hope everyone has fun and does well in all their upcoming games. I also want to spend some time on Korean and dance too.

*breathes* It helps to get things sorted out but I've to remember to spend less time worrying and more time analysing things calmly. Keyword - calm! On a side note, I feel physically off, sadly. There's this weird rash on my right foot and my left finger is bruised hard from a basketball, it's hard to bend. It's getting late now, time to refuel so goodnight people! (I think no one really reads this though haha)

Guess what! One semester is over. I still find it a little hard to comprehend that I'm in university actually; it always seemed like a faraway thing. But yes, growing to accept that and about becoming older. I think there has been a huge blank from my JC life to this point of time on my blog so here's what has happened...

After A-levels, with the long break, I have gone on a trip to Taiwan with 3 of my squadmates (yay). And the best part was getting to enter the studios of 百分百, it was totally a once in a life time experience, and not forgetting the awesome food and places in that wonderful country. I also got certified as a first aider, worked at a restaurant and florist and also attended CIBTC as an instructor. It may not seem the most packed schedule, but I think the break was good and well spent overall :)

Right, so after a long and tough ride getting my results, choosing my university, I finally got things settled. I too realised Pei Yin is going to be my coursemate and we decided to apply for hall together. Oh yes, I went for hall camp. Haha. It is interesting to hear stories about school from seniors actually before going for camp. For example, hearing about school work, STARS or hall life. The camp was pretty long and I got to meet many different people, especially those from Spartans. There were lots of activities (although some were surprising to me, different from other types of camps) but the tricky thing was that I had to shuttle between area camp and hall camp so that was tiring to some extent. I think it was an interesting opening to university for me though! Glad to see that most people were rather welcoming and friendly; just go in with an open mind.

Apart from hall, it was great to meet the nice professors who are rather enthusiastic about what they teach in Linguistics. The content is intriguing and interesting from my point of view so I think I should be enjoying my studies! Of course, not all is easy and there are times where the work gets tough and complicated, that is when I need to sit down and rationalise. It is pretty cool because not many people dabble in this area of study and it helps me view things from an alternate perspective (not the usual way). So far, the people in my course are good to get along with too, although I have yet to really work on any projects so I will see how that goes! I heard that Linguistics work are based mostly on projects, but more in the upper levels.

It is only when examinations are closing in that I discovered that each semester is really short, as compared to normal school terms in the past. Examinations were stressful, but partially because I took exams while being in CIBTC, booking in and out. It meant having to study in the wee hours of the day as I took my squad in the day. I fell asleep in my books at times > < It would have definitely been easier to just stay in hall and to plainly study but it really challenged my management of myself, having to prepare to teach and also remember my school content together. It definitely helps to understand lectures prior but in any case note to self: Avoid doing this again whenever possible!

Now the semester is over and holidays are happening, let me share what I have been up to :D I am going back to my unit for campcraft competition training (really hoping the girls can show THEIR want) and being involved in CCC for NPCC. Besides that, in hall, I am happy to have been training for hockey (in fact since before exams) and play in IHG. It was sad that we could not play on in the next few rounds but it was a fun experience meeting the people on the team! The game helped me in seeing things on a deeper level, and thinking more critically. I never saw some things in a certain way before; it opened up my mind (kind of) if I have to put it into words, in terms of how to move and react to situations. At a later point, I started training a little for basketball too. It was nice to see familiar people inside the girls' team :) At the moment, there will also be HOCC coming up but I need to figure that out. There should be a few more hall things coming up for various subcommittees so I shall keep my eyes peeled for that.

Okay, enough of this long post for now. Hope everyone has been doing well! With the ushering in of 2014, I'm wondering about my resolutions/goals and about turning 1 year older this year. Hmm how is that going to feel? At this point of time, I truly hope I will be able to strike a balance between work, ties and play in this coming months and do things with no regrets (: I shall try to post more!

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I just feel that I needed some sort of way to record my feelings. Although one of my resolutions (kind of) is to look at the positive side of things and be more happy, sometimes I get this sad tingly feeling... For example, my dad told us to keep a certain day free as the whole extended family will be going to the usual buffet place for Chinese New Year lunch, like last year. The words "last year" triggered a emotion high for me unknowingly, because my brain automatically clicked back to last CNY lunch and I remembered my grandma being there, not just last year but also past buffets. Then it dawned upon me that the only difference this year is that she will not be there. All the memories just start flooding back, from the point where I went home one fine Friday to realise the horrible news and see her lying there, seeing the undertakers bring her out, all the way to helping to settle the funeral matters :( It went from unbelievable shock to mind blank to sadness to having to be strong. (because everyone was equally upset and it was the last little thing I could do)

It feels so surreal, just thinking about "last year" or every time I enter her room (now occupied with some of my dad's things). Sometimes I worry if I will end up forgetting her or having my memory fade out. I rarely cry but I remember how I cried so badly. So many things happened last year. I know life goes on (probably what some people would say) but I just get affected whenever I think back with any random triggers, going from high to low.

Some stuff also happened today, of course I was not as shaken as the last incident. I just hope the words were taken in from a certain first-hand perspective and let's hope for the best. Sometimes I just wish I could just drop some things and go back to the simple world (like training juniors more which is probably something my officers would happily welcome).
 

Time to worry, because school is starting soon. It's semester 2 wow, there are indeed a lot of things coming up. I'm hoping to put in more time on my studies though, because I know I can do better so I shall have to get my priorities right!

At this point of time, I am wondering if I should be working. It started when my previous employer at the florist shop texted me to ask if I can return for the Valentine's Day period since I worked last year. Can I call it a money crunch? I mean I know that I will not have problems getting by the semesters because my parents will pay my expenses, but it's not a nice feeling knowing that there are so many expenses... And furthermore, if I have a job I can pay for myself too. I'm pondering and balancing my options - perhaps taking a job, or selling old items or clothes. No doubt, I can foresee my family/friends asking me to focus on my studies and making full use of my time in university while it lasts.

So one thing is about earning money. The other thing is wanting to venture into writing or internship opportunities! It would be a nice challenge for myself, to pen down ideas. I saw this email about signing up for school's paper Nanyang Chronicle, it sounds like a way to start small but oh tian, I am getting myself in many things already. I might consider that in another semester > <

Ended my campcraft comp meeting late on Friday (and saw squadmates omg, would have loved to hang with them) so I went back to hall close to midnight. Speaking of hall, I think I am surviving okay in hall. Though there's so many things going on, the people are mostly friendly. But haha, I have this thing where I am a little afraid/hesitant to talk to seniors (maybe because from my UG background). And...most people around me are seniors. LOL, oh well.

There's this list of to-dos I need to settle as well! Random minutes, jotting on my organiser, send emails. Basketball. Hockey? (but I doubt we will train since IHG will not be anytime near) Hope everyone has fun and does well in all their upcoming games. I also want to spend some time on Korean and dance too.

*breathes* It helps to get things sorted out but I've to remember to spend less time worrying and more time analysing things calmly. Keyword - calm! On a side note, I feel physically off, sadly. There's this weird rash on my right foot and my left finger is bruised hard from a basketball, it's hard to bend. It's getting late now, time to refuel so goodnight people! (I think no one really reads this though haha)

Guess what! One semester is over. I still find it a little hard to comprehend that I'm in university actually; it always seemed like a faraway thing. But yes, growing to accept that and about becoming older. I think there has been a huge blank from my JC life to this point of time on my blog so here's what has happened...

After A-levels, with the long break, I have gone on a trip to Taiwan with 3 of my squadmates (yay). And the best part was getting to enter the studios of 百分百, it was totally a once in a life time experience, and not forgetting the awesome food and places in that wonderful country. I also got certified as a first aider, worked at a restaurant and florist and also attended CIBTC as an instructor. It may not seem the most packed schedule, but I think the break was good and well spent overall :)

Right, so after a long and tough ride getting my results, choosing my university, I finally got things settled. I too realised Pei Yin is going to be my coursemate and we decided to apply for hall together. Oh yes, I went for hall camp. Haha. It is interesting to hear stories about school from seniors actually before going for camp. For example, hearing about school work, STARS or hall life. The camp was pretty long and I got to meet many different people, especially those from Spartans. There were lots of activities (although some were surprising to me, different from other types of camps) but the tricky thing was that I had to shuttle between area camp and hall camp so that was tiring to some extent. I think it was an interesting opening to university for me though! Glad to see that most people were rather welcoming and friendly; just go in with an open mind.

Apart from hall, it was great to meet the nice professors who are rather enthusiastic about what they teach in Linguistics. The content is intriguing and interesting from my point of view so I think I should be enjoying my studies! Of course, not all is easy and there are times where the work gets tough and complicated, that is when I need to sit down and rationalise. It is pretty cool because not many people dabble in this area of study and it helps me view things from an alternate perspective (not the usual way). So far, the people in my course are good to get along with too, although I have yet to really work on any projects so I will see how that goes! I heard that Linguistics work are based mostly on projects, but more in the upper levels.

It is only when examinations are closing in that I discovered that each semester is really short, as compared to normal school terms in the past. Examinations were stressful, but partially because I took exams while being in CIBTC, booking in and out. It meant having to study in the wee hours of the day as I took my squad in the day. I fell asleep in my books at times > < It would have definitely been easier to just stay in hall and to plainly study but it really challenged my management of myself, having to prepare to teach and also remember my school content together. It definitely helps to understand lectures prior but in any case note to self: Avoid doing this again whenever possible!

Now the semester is over and holidays are happening, let me share what I have been up to :D I am going back to my unit for campcraft competition training (really hoping the girls can show THEIR want) and being involved in CCC for NPCC. Besides that, in hall, I am happy to have been training for hockey (in fact since before exams) and play in IHG. It was sad that we could not play on in the next few rounds but it was a fun experience meeting the people on the team! The game helped me in seeing things on a deeper level, and thinking more critically. I never saw some things in a certain way before; it opened up my mind (kind of) if I have to put it into words, in terms of how to move and react to situations. At a later point, I started training a little for basketball too. It was nice to see familiar people inside the girls' team :) At the moment, there will also be HOCC coming up but I need to figure that out. There should be a few more hall things coming up for various subcommittees so I shall keep my eyes peeled for that.

Okay, enough of this long post for now. Hope everyone has been doing well! With the ushering in of 2014, I'm wondering about my resolutions/goals and about turning 1 year older this year. Hmm how is that going to feel? At this point of time, I truly hope I will be able to strike a balance between work, ties and play in this coming months and do things with no regrets (: I shall try to post more!

Older posts | Newer posts

Still growing up in the midst of university. My friends tell me I think a lot, which could be good or bad depending on how you see it. I'm currently studying Linguistics in NTU. At the same time, I am involved in NPCC and various school activities. I guess this blog will include bits and pieces of my new experiences for sharing! Definitely looking forward to trying and learning new things <3

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→ First Step 2 Forever
→ New school stuff.

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