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written on Thursday, February 4, 2010 @ 11:58 PM ✈
Two days I turned 16. It was a great one, celebrated my birthday at home in advance. I brought a remaining slice to school to eat, thinking nothing much would happen. Then squadmates sang happy birthday to me, gave many presents - the awesome Yan Ni's notebook with a spastic picture of xiao zhu and xiao gui, Nicole's chocolate oreo cake (my 2nd cake), Aircon's ahem disposable pencil case, Yee Hui's figurines and CDs and sooo many lovely messages. But why is it that two days later things are so different? I've always known that for CT you need to make sacrifices, first swimming, guitar, studies, NYAA? I must admit, I have been overly obssessed or into CT during the holidays, leading to my downfall. The passion is still lingering but I do regret. My NYAA is severely affected. Now, currently what's happening is just dampening whatever I have left of myself. I spend one hour convincing people about CT everyday, and it's very tiring, mentally and physically after a long day at school (6 rounds and pushups and training, with a 2man pitch). It's very exhausting. I have to admit, I'm juggling my studies, CCA, competition and human relationship in a bad manner. It's bad enough. How do you strike a balance being rooted to your stand and taking in what people say? I may seem to be unreasonable or irritating, but I don't like forcing people to do things also. But I have to. It does not only affect us, whatever decisions we make, but others too. We need to be responsible for our actions. Spending so much time is very taxing for me, but I hope it makes one feel better, or not as lousy as when I force it upon you. I do consider your viewpoints, but when you weigh things out, it may not be priority. Long term wise, things may happen. Sometimes when I take your words fully, and I do it the way, I was unable to convince myself what I was doing. We don't have much time left, and the good gets rusty, how can we afford to play with time like that? I can't afford regrets, I need to answer to myself. One can afford it when the time comes nearer when all are experienced. 0 comment[s] | back to top |